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Unruly Confessions Ep 20 - Midnight Betrayal

Arabella: 0:03

The following podcast contains adult themes, graphic sexual content, strong language, alcohol and drug references, and some infrequent violence. Everything you need for a wild ride.

Nicole: 0:05

The Band we have created for the podcast was inspired by many of our favourite bands, but they are all made up and fictional and most of the events are fictional too. Some of the events are inspired by things Bella and I have experienced, but the story as a whole is fictional.(Podcast theme music plays – Rat Head by Big Mouse Tree House)

Arabella: 0:08

Welcome back to Unruly Confessions, guys. Hi

Nicole: 0:10

Hi

Arabella: 0:12

This is exciting.

Nicole: 0:14

It's exciting.

Arabella: 0:16

I'm Arabella and this is my best friend,

Nicole: 0:18

Nicole. Ha!

Arabella: 0:20

This is super exciting. We have made it to the end of Season 1. Holy crapsicles.

Nicole: 0:22

Oh, my gosh, and seriously, it has been so fast and so slow at the same time.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 0:25

Yes, it is ridiculous, but we promise you we will be back

Nicole: 0:27

Yeah.

Arabella: 0:29

For Season 2. We have a whole plan and we're going to make sure it's all edited and, and ready to go before we let it out, so you don't have to do - deal with what we did last time and need a huge -

Nicole: 0:31

Have a massive break in the middle, so sorry

Arabella: 0:33

Fucking break. Yes, we have learned how to do things better,

Nicole: 0:35

Even though it's very important to take fucking breaks(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 0:38

Yes, fucking breaks are very necessary

Nicole: 0:40

But we are going to make less of them for you during the podcast.

Arabella: 0:42

Yes, we want to entertain you.

Nicole: 0:44

Yes.

Arabella: 0:46

Haha!

Nicole: 0:48

So, without taking too much time just babbling at you, let me do a recap,

Arabella: 0:50

Yeah!

Nicole: 0:52

Because a lot of today's final episode is from Bella's perspective.

Arabella: 0:54

Wooh!

Nicole: 0:56

So last week, on Unruly Confessions, Episode 19 - Anxious and Horny, my common states,

Arabella: 0:58

Yeah

Nicole: 1:00

We started with Mike and I having an argument in the suite because I mistook him for Carter but could not tell him that

Arabella: 1:02

Yeah, because you were

Nicole: 1:04

He then gave me the silence treatment, which is the worst thing for me.

Arabella: 1:06

Yes

Nicole: 1:08

Mike had a conver-

Arabella: 1:10

And it wasn't that effective though, it wasn't. Because he had to tell you about it.

Nicole: 1:12

Well, he wasn't that effective at it because he, I think

Arabella: 1:14

He had to tell you(Arabella chuckles)

Nicole: 1:17

Yeah, that he was giving. Well, if he didn't inform me, I might not have known, and I would just continue to babble at him and he was like I'm ignoring you.

Arabella: 1:19

This is true.

Nicole: 1:21

So you know

Arabella: 1:23

Yes

Nicole: 1:25

Mike had a conversation with Ava on the phone and informed me that she may be joining the tour.

Arabella: 1:27

Ooh

Nicole: 1:29

He gave me a dress and at last revealed what we were doing that evening, which was to go to the European Music Awards, which is really exciting!

Arabella: 1:31

Exciting

Nicole: 1:33

But

Arabella: 1:35

Yeah

Nicole: 1:37

Not on his arm, which should have been obvious,

Arabella: 1:39

Yeah

Nicole: 1:41

To be honest.

Arabella: 1:43

Really

Nicole: 1:45

We had to find someone else for me to go with. Zander also got Bella a dress.

Arabella: 1:47

Yes, it's so pretty.

Nicole: 1:49

I finally had the time to inform Bella about my morning, with Carter and Jason confronting me.(Arabella chuckles) Bella and I got done up for the event by professionals and we made our entrance going down the stairs, when I tripped

Arabella: 1:53

Yes

Nicole: 1:55

Jason came to my rescue

Arabella: 1:57

As is only expected.

Nicole: 1:59

Absolutely. And Jason came to my rescue, but he was not too pleased.

Arabella: 2:01

No

Nicole: 2:03

We rode in a limo

Arabella: 2:05

He's still a bit.

Nicole: 2:07

Yep

Arabella: 2:09

He's still a bit(Arabella growls)

Nicole: 2:12

Obviously. He's a bit all over the place as well. Bless his heart.

Arabella: 2:14

Yes

Nicole: 2:16

We rode in a limo all together to the awards. Zander gave Bella some jewellery straight out of fucking Pretty Woman.

Arabella: 2:18

It was fucking gorgeous.

Nicole: 2:20

It was, and I had a little moment of, “but, attention for me too”.

Arabella: 2:22

Why do I not get this adoration too?

Nicole: 2:24

Adoration. Adore me. I found out that Jay is the one who would be escorting me. I freak out and I managed to once again insult Carter, and this time it was a very low blow.

Arabella: 2:26

It really was, and yet again breaking another big no-no rule. Yes.

Nicole: 2:32

Calling myself a whore, basically.

Arabella: 2:34

Yes

Nicole: 2:36

Mike says that he wishes I could go with Carter, because at least he would know that we wouldn't fuck. Awkward.

Arabella: 2:38

Awkward.

Nicole: 2:40

Very awkward.(Nicole chuckles and Arabella “Eeeks”) We arrive at the event and walk the red carpet. Jay calls me his cousin in front of the cameras, while brushing my boob, and many other unruly shenanigans.

Arabella: 2:44

Yes, because he

Nicole: 2:46

And lastly,

Arabella: 2:48

He be like that

Nicole: 2:50

Yeah. And lastly, I tell Jason that he's confusing me with all the touching. Is he mad at me or not? And then he tells me that he won't touch me anymore and I don't love that.

Arabella: 2:52

No, you never love that.

Nicole: 2:54

Because I really wanted him to go “I'm not that mad at you and I like touching you”

Arabella: 2:56

Yes

Nicole: 2:58

But obviously

Arabella: 3:00

Can I touch you some more?

Nicole: 3:02

Yeah, please can I touch you more deeply?(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 3:05

Yes, all on the insides.

Nicole: 3:07

But no, that's not what happened. By the way, I don't have any proof of this, except you know general personality, but I am, like 95 % sure that Jason has ADHD as well.

Arabella: 3:09

Yeah, that kind of makes sense.

Nicole: 3:11

Yeah, because, as you'll see how the rest of this unfolds.

Arabella: 3:13

Yes

Nicole: 3:15

And he tells me not to disappoint him, and I say that that is the last thing I want to do.

Arabella: 3:17

Yeah. And that

Nicole: 3:19

And that brings us to today.

Arabella: 3:21

Yeah. Episode 20, Midnight Betrayal.

Nicole: 3:23

So without further shenanigans or bullshit from me(Podcast theme music begins – Rat Head by Big Mouse Tree House) Or from Bella. Let us get straight into it.(Podcast theme music continues – Rat Head by Big Mouse Tree House) We walked the last four steps up the red carpet and entered the building. I gaped at my surroundings. Inside the theatre the red carpet blended into the permanent red carpet that covered the entire floor of the theatre.(Arabella & Nicole chuckle) Well, how else would you explain that?(Arabella laughs) Rows of red velvet seats lined the theatre on either side of the long red carpet leading towards the stage. On either side of the seats were the galleries. Each box was divided by stone columns and decorated with gold patterns. Red velvet curtains lined the top of the boxes. The ceiling of the theatre was expertly painted, with angels, Mary and God all perched on clouds, looking holy.(Both laugh) Fuck

Arabella: 3:37

So holy.

Nicole: 3:39

So holy.(Arabella chuckles) Vines and suns lined the sides of the ceiling in a circle. The stage had a proscenium arch that was made from stone as well and was also decorated with gold.

Arabella: 3:43

Gotta love a

Arabella & Nicole: 3:45

Proscenium arch

Nicole: 3:47

I know I was like “theatre

Arabella: 3:49

So theatery.

Nicole: 3:51

Buffs anyone?”(Arabella chuckles) A thick red velvet curtain hung in front of the stage with the theatre’s emblem on it. The theatre was dimly lit and on the curtain in purple light were the words ‘European Music Awards’. The theatre was nearly full of people. We sat down in the seventh row from the front. I sat with Mike on my left and Jason on my right. Happy place.

Arabella: 3:56

Woo-hoo!

Nicole: 3:58

Zander was on Mike's other side with Bella next to him. Except Bella is too far away. I can't whisper

Arabella: 4:01

Yes!

Nicole: 4:03

Silly little bullshit to you.

Arabella: 4:05

We should be next to each other so we can be like heblblblblblblb (Mock chattering)

Nicole: 4:07

Yeah, because now we're going to annoy the men around us rather than ourselves.

Arabella: 4:09

Yes, because we will talk over them.

Nicole: 4:11

Yep, we will. Watch the space. I'm about to lean over Mike and be like “Bella!” - and actually Zander - Bella and Mike and Zander to get to you.

Arabella: 4:13

Yes

Nicole: 4:15

Noah and Carter filled the next two seats beside Bella. Andrew took the seat to the right of Jason.“How much did you tell Timothy Carter?” Mike asked, “that first night you met him?”“-nothing that important”, I lied.(Arabella laughs) God.

Arabella: 4:21

So hard

Nicole: 4:23

I'm not going to get out of this shit. We mostly talked about England- ““Can you start avoiding Timothy Carter?”“I have been avoiding him”, I responded. “I didn’t invite him here, did I?”“You didn’t exactly ignore him either- “ I sighed and crossed my arms, staring ahead at the stage.

Arabella: 4:30

Oh grumpus.

Nicole: 4:32

To be fair, though he's being a bit mean

Arabella: 4:34

No

Nicole: 4:36

about Timothy. Like I mean

Arabella: 4:38

Exactly. You can't help it. Although you, you could have not run over to him and gone, he's here. What are we going to do?(Nicole chuckles)

Nicole: 4:41

Yeah

Arabella: 4:43

Made a massive flap around it.

Nicole: 4:45

Yeah

Arabella: 4:47

Yeah

Nicole: 4:49

Yeah

Arabella: 4:51

Yeah

Nicole: 4:53

Yeah, okay,(Nicole laughs) moving on.(Arabella laughs)

Arabella: 4:58

So, it's from my perspective now, guys, okay, here we go. So, we are taking you back to, back in time, back to the limousine when everyone else has left and - Zander and my time - just so you're aware. Okay, here we go. Zander and I were the only two left in the limousine when Carter and Noah stepped into the flashes on the red carpet. Zander took me around the waist and started kissing me feverishly.“Zander, Zander”, I said against his lips. “My lipstick—”“Really?” he asked pausing but not removing his lips from mine. “No, not really”,(Nicole chuckles) I responded and pulled his body onto – pulled his body into mine.

Nicole: 5:05

On to God. Shit.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 5:08

I'm like just fucking, get on me.

Nicole: 5:10

Also, you're strong.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 5:13

Yes(Arabella laughs)“No, not really”, I responded and pulled his body into mine, returning his kiss with vigour. I heard ‘The Girl all The Bad Guys Want’ playing over the speakers outside. There was a knock on the door from outside. We ignored it and continued to make-out in the back of the limousine.(Nicole chuckles) There was another knock and someone cleared their throat.“Mr. Masters”, Billy’s voice said. I guessed he called them by their surnames in public. “Everyone is waiting for you- ““Just a second!” Zander called back and proceeded to kiss me.

Nicole: 5:22

No shits given!

Arabella: 5:24

“We should go”,

Nicole: 5:26

Fuckin´ hell(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 5:29

No, none.“We should go”, I told him reluctantly. He pulled his lips from mine and sighed. “I know- ““How’s my lipstick?” I asked him.“Looks perfect to me”. I pulled out a small mirror from my clutch bag and examined my lips.“Sure, pretty perfect”,(Nicole laughs) I said, sarcastically, as I touched up my lipstick.

Nicole: 5:39

I mean, how could it look perfect? He just made out with you,

Arabella: 5:41

Exactly

Nicole: 5:43

It's gonna be all over. Have we checked his lips?

Arabella: 5:45

Apparently not.

Nicole: 5:47

(Speaking whilst chuckling) We should probably check his lips.

Arabella: 5:50

Maybe I do. Let's see how this goes. If I still haven't checked his lips by the time we get out of the limousine

Nicole: 5:52

Then we

Arabella: 5:54

We´ll come back.

Nicole: 5:56

Then we'll just say everyone, we checked Zander's lips.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 5:59

Yes, it is implied, not done, not said.(Both puff a laugh)“We need to talk to Mike about Nicky tonight”, I told him as I put the mirror back. Zander sighed dramatically. “Fucking Nicky—do you really have to save her neck constantly?”“The pressure is too much...and now Jay’s clearly angry at her- ““She shouldn’t have fucked Carter then- ““Shh-“ I insisted. “I wasn’t supposed to tell you, Zander—can you not shout it- ““Mr. Masters”, Billy said again, “the limousine needs to be moved- ““All right, we’re coming-“Zander snapped accidentally.“Please can we talk to Mike?” I asked hopefully.“Fine”, he relented, “but then you let her clean up her own goddamn messes- “

Nicole: 6:11

Can I just slightly interject to say

Arabella: 6:13

Yeah

Nicole: 6:15

Zand-, you are being a wonderful person, but I ab-, it is absolutely up to me to clean up my own messes.

Arabella: 6:17

It really is.

Nicole: 6:19

It really is.

Arabella: 6:21

I'm just used to helping manage your bullshit.

Nicole: 6:23

That and... but yeah, not to this extent. I'm never this bad.

Arabella: 6:25

No

Nicole: 6:27

But like

Arabella: 6:29

No

Nicole: 6:31

But Zander, bless his heart, he's like

Arabella: 6:33

He's like “uggghhhh”(Arabella growls)

Nicole: 6:36

Doing this for you.

Arabella: 6:38

Yes

Nicole: 6:40

If he had his way, he would string me up by my bootstraps and leave me there.

Arabella: 6:42

Yes. Like you promised

Arabella & Nicole: 6:44

Mike, he would

Nicole: 6:46

Do

Arabella: 6:48

Eventually do

Nicole: 6:50

Yeah.

Arabella: 6:52

Yeah. You called it.

Nicole: 6:54

I did. I meant that in a kinky way, not in a I'm actually going to annoy the fuck out of you way.

Arabella: 6:56

Yeah, but still.

Nicole: 6:58

This has not been my best moment, anyway.

Arabella: 7:00

No, it has not.“Fine”, he relented, “but then you let her clean up her own goddamn messes- “ I didn’t respond but followed Zander out of the limousine and into the flashing cameras and screaming fans. Zander held me around the waist and smiled comfortably at the cameras. I tried to mimic his ease. I could see Nicole and Jason quite a long way up the red carpet. Noah, Carter and Mike were between us and them, signing autographs and chatting to fans behind the silver barrier. Zander led me away from the first load of photographers and towards some of the fans to say hello. Soon, we were experiencing a few interviews of our own. Zander stuck to business and only spoke of the music and the tour. Until we got to the last interview up the carpet. I saw Jason and Nicole speaking to the same woman from E-entertainment earlier. Zander greeted them amicably. I stood slightly to the side to give Zander the attention, but the woman immediately asked about me.“Is this the new woman in your life?” she asked. I could see from the way Zander’s jaw clenched that he disliked the phrasing ‘new woman’. He’d only recently finalised his divorce from Lillian Rossi who happened to be Mike’s wife’s best friend. It suddenly occurred to me that Zander and I never agreed on what we would say if someone asked that question.“No comment”, Zander responded smiling.“Come on”, she urged.“I’m here to talk about the tour and the new album”, Zander told her, “No personal questions”.“People want to know the juicy stuff-“ she continued. He laughed it off but I saw the muscle in his jaw jump. “Enjoy your evening”, he said, and pulled me away from the disappointed interviewer.

Nicole: 7:15

That's what you get

Arabella: 7:17

I was about- Yeah.

Nicole: 7:19

He set up his boundaries and she pushed, and he was like “I'm out”.

Arabella: 7:21

Yeah I was about to ask Zander if he needed to take a break when Jason lifted Nicole off the floor in the middle of the red carpet and swung her around. It drew an incredible amount of attention as she laugh-cried loudly, begging Jason to put her down. He didn’t look like he was going to comply, so I pulled Zander closer.“Jay, come on”, I said, and he put her down immediately and jogged off.

Nicole: 7:26

“Is he drunk?”

Arabella: 7:28

Nicole whispered to Carter, Zander and I. Carter was laughing and Zander smiling.“He’s just being Jay”, Carter said. Zander nudged me back up the carpet and I didn’t have a chance to speak to Nicole. As we continued up the red carpet, I noticed Mike Ellis from ‘Midnight Betrayal’ coming up the carpet near Mike Solomon.“There are some big names in rock and metal here”, I said softly to Zander.“Who are you talking about?” he asked.

Nicole: 7:36

Yeah, who can I be

Arabella: 7:38

I turned

Nicole: 7:40

Jealous of?

Arabella: 7:42

Yes

Nicole: 7:44

Not that he needs to be.

Arabella: 7:46

No. I turned gently to point out Mike Ellis.“Oh yeah”, he said, “he’s a cool guy. We don’t see him often, but we met at a festival a few years ago”.“Hey, Zander —” I wanted to ask him about the ‘new woman’ question, but he moved away to talk to Carter before I could get the words out.“Just a second, Bella”, he said as he talked to Carter in hushed tones.“What did you want to say?” he asked, reappearing at my side a minute later.“I wanted to ask about-“Suddenly, a Swiss photographer called the guys over for some photos together against the white screen near the entrance to the venue.“Sorry”, Zander said, “I need to go do this, but soon- ““That’s okay”. Nicole appeared at my side around the same time. “How’s it going?” I asked her. “You look so fucking beautiful- “

Nicole: 7:56

“You do! I can’t take my eyes off you and neither can anyone else”.

Arabella: 7:58

I laughed. “Are you behaving with Jay?”

Nicole: 8:00

“I am, for the first time ever but Jay is not behaving at all—did you see him swinging me around?”

Arabella: 8:02

“I did, but I don’t think anyone will be alarmed by that”.

I frowned. “Interesting tactic-“Nicole: 8:06

“Right? This guy—so unpredictable-“I say with almost admiration, like awe.

Arabella: 8:08

Yes.

Nicole: 8:10

You know.(Arabella chuckles) This guy.

Arabella: 8:14

Always with awe. This guy, right?(Nicole laughs) The photographer ordered Nicole and I into the photo.“Uh—no—no”, I said, “you don’t need us in there-“ I wasn’t sure whether the band would approve.“Just get in the picture, or we’ll be here all night”, Mike said, and Nicole and I hurried over. I was still wondering where to position myself when Zander pulled me to stand in front of him. Nicole stood between Jason and Noah. The photographer took a few shots before all of us entered the venue for the awards. During the break, I convinced Zander that it was time to talk to Mike. He was still reluctant but followed my lead in the hope that it would help me focus less on Nicole’s well-being.“Hey, Mike?” He was standing at the bar, ordering a drink. “Could we talk about Nicky?”“What is she doing?” Mike asked, his face immediately changing from smiling at us to annoyed.

Nicole: 8:24

Great.

Arabella: 8:26

“Don’t stress”

Nicole: 8:28

(Nicole huffs a laugh) I love that for me

Arabella: 8:31

Yeah

Nicole: 8:33

Mention of my name

Arabella: 8:35

Yeah

Nicole: 8:37

All goes to shit.

Arabella: 8:39

Yeah.“Don’t stress, she’s just dancing around with Jay and Noah over there-“ I pointed to the other side of the large room where the three of them were hopping around bizarrely to absolutely no music.

Nicole: 8:42

Classic(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 8:45

Yeah. Sounds about right. Mike frowned then shrugged. “So, what do we need to talk about?”“Hear me out, okay? Nicky’s my best friend and I’ve known her a long time. I know her positives and negatives. I’m completely sincere when I say she is a very open and honest person who believes strongly in communication- “ Mike snorted. “Really?”“Yes”, I insisted. “This is why I wanted to speak to you. She’s clearly not acting like herself, and I believe it’s because she’s under too much pressure”.“What pressure?”“She’s trying to please everyone at the same time—you, the other guys, me and herself”, I told him, “It’s a lot. I’m sure you can understand that”.“She knows what she signed up for”“She signed up for anxiety?” I raised my eyebrows. Ooh, I'm sassy.

Nicole: 8:56

Mmh. No, but you ha- you can be.

Arabella: 8:58

Oh I can be.

Nicole: 9:00

Because in this way

Arabella: 9:02

This is so true.

Nicole: 9:04

He kind of deserves it, a little bit.

Arabella: 9:06

Yeah“And of course she knows, but you’ve added some extras that she didn’t sign up for”.“What are you referring to?”“There’s a lot of keeping secrets in public”, I reminded him. “And tonight, she has to walk around in front of fans and press, not giving away too much and trying to keep her cool when she’s on the arm of one of her favourite people in the world- “

Nicole: 9:12

“Oh! You kill me, Jay—I can’t even-” Oh god, I´m so, I'm so much.(Arabella laughs) Poor Jay.

Arabella: 9:17

Mike smiled gently at the joy. “All right, I’ve been a bit demanding—is that what you’re saying?” I nodded. “That’s more or less of what I’m saying”, I confirmed, “also the more you ask of her, the more rules—the bigger the chance she will mess up, then you get upset—then she gets upset, and then she’s likely to be too anxious to talk to you about it—do you see what I mean?” He sighed. “Yes—I don’t think I’ve got too many rules- ““Perhaps not”, I told him, “But Nicky has ADHD—she told you that, right?”“No”

Nicole: 9:23

Shit.

Arabella: 9:25

He frowned(Nicole huffs a laugh) Yeah

Nicole: 9:29

Shiiit. That's a big thing not to tell him.

Arabella: 9:31

Shiiit, oh yeah.“But that makes a lot of sense”.

Nicole: 9:34

Why the fuck wouldn't I tell him that?

Arabella: 9:36

Because you're having too fun and you're not thinking about it

Nicole: 9:38

Yeah, that´s true.

Arabella: 9:40

Even though it's obvious

Nicole: 9:42

Yeah, we did kind of

Arabella: 9:44

And you´re anxious

Nicole: 9:46

Throw ourselves into the deep end here.

Arabella: 9:48

Oh yeah, oh yeah

Note to everyone listening: 9:50

Obviously this is a lot of fun and it's fictional, but this is probably not the best way to start a DS dynamic, like don't do it

Arabella: 9:52

No

Nicole: 9:54

On a headlining tour, not the first time.

Arabella: 9:56

With your favourite people in the world

Nicole: 9:58

Yeah

Arabella: 10:00

And rules and all sorts of things

Nicole: 10:02

Nutty

Arabella: 10:04

And

Nicole: 10:06

But for a podcast it's a hell of a good thing to do.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 10:09

Oh yeah, oh yeah,“I would suggest loosening up some of the responsibility and working on clearer communication”, I said, “if you talk to her openly and honestly, she will be thrilled- ““I see”, Mike said, “but this isn’t about me—this is about the band. I ask a lot of her because this is a business, and a business she wants to be part of, so- ““Zander?” I raised my eyebrows at him expectantly, “did you not have something to say?”(Nicole and Arabella huff a laugh)

Nicole: 10:15

Poor Zander

Arabella: 10:17

Oh, wow

Nicole: 10:19

He's like so pissed

Arabella: 10:21

He's like

Nicole: 10:23

Fuck´s sake.

Arabella: 10:25

Fuck my life!

Nicole: 10:27

This is what you get when you romance. When you're romancing, you're not just DS-ing.

Arabella: 10:29

(Arabella scoffs a laugh) Yeah

Nicole: 10:32

You get roped in.

Arabella: 10:34

“Yes”. Zander sighed. “Dude, we’ve noticed that you’re more agitated over her than anyone of us- ““Who’s we?”“Jay and I”.“Okay”, Mike said graciously, “I’m listening. What do you think?”“You’re worried that she’s going to upset our work and lives but the only one who’s upset is you, bro”, Zander explained, “and your feelings in turn, upset us. Nicky is entertaining as hell to be honest. It becomes work when you guys are constantly arguing about something she did, something she wasn’t supposed to- “ Mike sighed deeply. “So should I send her home?”“No!” I cried straight away.

Nicole: 10:42

So close to backfiring.

Arabella: 10:44

Yeah, I'm like no, no, no no.(Nicole laughs) Abort!

Arabella & Nicole: 10:48

Abort!

“I’ve got this”, Zander told me gently. “Relax”. Then to Mike: 10:50

“Do you really want to send her away?”“No”, Mike responded, “but I’m not acting like myself either. I’m constantly this tense, angry person”.“Sounds like you and Nicky have a lot to talk about”, I told him.

Nicole: 10:54

Geez, mommy! Over here.(Nicole and Arabella laugh) This is so necessary, fucking hell.

Arabella: 10:58

Yeah.“Why are you tense?” Zander asked Mike.“Maybe I’ve expected her to fill too much of my boredom”, Mike said.“And perhaps a bit of the loneliness of touring”, Zander said bravely. Mike chuckled. “Totally—Ava’s going to come out soon though. I’ll talk to Nicky and give her a break”.“Thank you, Mike”, I said sincerely.

Nicole: 11:05

Hang on, hang on. What does he mean by give me a break? No, no, no, no(Nicole huffs a laugh) No!

Arabella: 11:09

Don't you worry

Nicole: 11:11

I'm very scared now

Arabella: 11:13

As in, give you a break, as in like don't- not being all tense and not getting angry at you all the time.

Nicole: 11:15

Oh good, I thought it was give me a break from sex because that would suck.

Arabella: 11:17

No

Nicole: 11:19

Don't give me a break

Arabella: 11:21

Although when Ava's here I think that's probably going to happen a little bit. Who knows?

Nicole: 11:23

We shall see

Arabella: 11:25

Who the fuck

Nicole & Arabella: 11:27

Knows?

Nicole: 11:29

Hint

Arabella: 11:31

Haha!

Nicole: 11:33

I am bisexual.

Arabella: 11:35

You are indeed.

Nicole: 11:37

Right.

Arabella: 11:39

I can confirm this.(Nicole Chuckles)“Thank you, Mike”, I said sincerely.“Do you guys happen to know why Jay was acting off with her earlier?” Mike asked us, frowning. “They seem fine now”.“You better have that conversation with her”, I suggested.“But do you know?” Mike asked.“We know”, Zander said, “but man, seriously have the conversation with her”.“Got it”, Mike said, “anyone want a drink?”

Nicole: 11:48

This is about

Arabella: 11:50

At that moment-

Nicole: 11:52

The moment that Mike's gone “hmm”. He kind-

Arabella: 11:54

Mm.

Nicole: 11:56

Now he knows, because he had suspicions,

Arabella: 11:58

Yeah

Nicole: 12:00

He's putting stuff together

Arabella: 12:02

Mm.

Nicole: 12:04

And now he's like... so the `got it´.

Arabella: 12:06

Yeah

Nicole: 12:08

I feel like there's a nuanced `got it´. `It's like got it, I'm hearing what you guys are saying. ´

Arabella: 12:10

Yeah

Nicole: 12:12

And also, `I got it´

Arabella: 12:14

Yeah

Nicole: 12:16

Yeah

Arabella: 12:18

Yeah. Mike said, “anyone want a drink?” At that moment, Jay ran past the bar, piggy-backing Nicole who was giggling.

Nicole: 12:22

Oh lord.

Arabella: 12:24

“That dress is not going to survive the night”, Zander laughed.“Is she going to survive the night?” Mike asked me.“Oh, yeah”, I assured him, “she’s having the time of her life”.

Nicole: 12:28

(Nicole chuckles) Bless.

Arabella: 12:31

Yes, yes, you are.

Nicole: 12:33

I, being piggybacked by Jason Shanahan. I fucking am.

Arabella: 12:35

Yes, you're having the best night ever

Yep. Also, I just wanted to very quickly say: 12:37

new relationship energy, plus

Arabella: 12:39

Yes

Nicole: 12:41

We're still getting to know each other, so it's like `what the frick? ´, you know?

Arabella: 12:43

Yeah, exactly.

Nicole: 12:45

There's a lot of - yeah - it's hard for a reason, it's hard for a reason.

Arabella: 12:47

Yeah During the second and last break of the awards, Nicole and I went to the bar to get a glass of wine. She needed a small break because even though she was incredibly energetic, or rather hyperactive,

Nicole: 12:50

Aha.

Arabella: 12:52

Jason was a whole different monster.

Nicole: 12:54

Yes

Arabella: 12:56

As we were ordering our wine, Mike Ellis arrived.“Good evening, ladies”, he greeted. “Are you enjoying your evening?”“We are”, I responded, “how about you?”“Great, thank you”, he told me. “Can I pay for your drinks?”“If you like”, I invited. “Thank you”.“So, you must be Jay’s new plaything,” Ellis stated brazenly. Nicole seemed not to be sure if she should be offended or not.

Nicole: 13:04

“Yeah, I’m his cousin”.(Nicole snorts a chuckle) Ellis frowned, then looked worriedly at me.

Arabella: 13:08

I laughed. “Running joke—they’re good friends”.“Right”, Ellis said, “and you? Did I see you with Zander?”“He’s my—uh—well, I’m his date for the evening”, I responded, rather inarticulately.“His date?” Ellis smiled. “So, you’re not together?”“No”, I decided to answer. “Is that wine coming?” The wine arrived(Both chuckle)

Nicole: 13:16

Yeah, you're like, please!

Arabella: 13:18

And Nicole and I-

Nicole: 13:20

Please, give me something else to do

Arabella: 13:22

Dear God

Nicole: 13:24

Than answer this man's questions? I'm scared.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 13:27

Yes, help!

Nicole: 13:29

Also, just so you guys know, Bella has had a crush on Mike Ellis for many, many, many years, so this is like a, ah! So, you're, you're literal, one of your

Arabella: 13:31

Yeah

Nicole: 13:33

One of your crushes, because we are sluts

Arabella: 13:35

Yeah

Nicole: 13:37

For bands like that, come

Arabella: 13:39

Yeah

Nicole: 13:41

Speaking to you, buying you a drink and then asking you about the guy you've come with is a stressful situation.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 13:44

So stressful I'm like I don't know what is happening. Oh my god, is this really happening?

Nicole: 13:46

Yeah

Arabella: 13:48

Somebody help me please!

Nicole: 13:50

Yah

Arabella: 13:52

This is my turn to go `AAH!´. The wine arrived and Nicole and I both took a glass, just as Jason arrived.“Hey, Jay”, Ellis greeted him.“Oh, hey, dude”, Jason said, a little out of breath and grabbed Nicole’s arm so hastily that she poured most of her wine on the floor and the rest on her dress.

Nicole: 13:57

Classic. Thanks for the wine, Ellis, I guess.

Arabella: 13:59

Yeah.

Nicole: 14:01

“Jay!”

Arabella: 14:03

She cried in surprise.

Nicole: 14:05

“My wine-and my dress- “ I love the priorities.

Arabella: 14:08

Yes.(Nicole laughs)“Come on, Sticky!” he called, “we want to drink shots from your bellybutton”.

Nicole: 14:12

Oh my god.(Arabella laughs)

Arabella: 14:15

Without further words, he dragged her away, leaving me with Mike Ellis. Fuck! You left me.

Nicole: 14:18

I- Did you see me have a choice? I was dragged.

Arabella: 14:20

True

Nicole: 14:22

I think that's the exact words. Ah, wha-

Arabella: 14:24

Yeah

Nicole: 14:26

“He dragged her away”. What do you want me to do?

Arabella: 14:29

Yes.

Nicole: 14:31

Fight, Jason Shanahan.

Arabella: 14:33

Yeah.

Nicole: 14:35

I don't want to.

Arabella: 14:37

I know you don´t.

Nicole: 14:39

He can drag me wherever he wants.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 14:42

I know he can, but I need help.

Nicole: 14:44

So sorry, Can I just say what kind of activity is this for an award ceremony?

Arabella: 14:46

I know

Nicole: 14:48

Gosh, darn it.

Arabella: 14:50

Without further words, he dragged her away, leaving me with Mike Ellis.“Odd cousins”, Ellis joked. I chuckled. “Yeah- ““Who exactly is your friend?” he asked, appearing a little concerned.“She’s my best friend, Nicole”, I told him, “I call her Nicky- “ He frowned. “Jay calls her Sticky, I think- ““Yeah, well—that’s her other nickname- “

Nicole: 14:58

Yeah, don't go into that.

Arabella: 15:00

“Do I want-”

Nicole: 15:02

Don't go into that.

Arabella: 15:04

“Do I want to know what your story is with The Band?” Ellis asked carefully.“It’s a pretty complex one”, I answered. “I’m currently contracted as a dancer for the band”.“Right, and...?”“And Mike Solomon invited Nicky on tour”, I told him, “A day later, I joined them in France-”“That sounds pretty simple so far”.“Now, we’re friends with them and we’re just touring with them”, I said vaguely.“But neither of you are in relationships with the guys?”“No- ““But Nicky is sleeping with Jay?”“Also, no”.“Uh, you’re Zander’s cousin too?”(Nicole scoffs a laugh) I barked a laugh but didn’t answer him.

Nicole: 15:18

Just the question-

Arabella: 15:20

“So-”

Nicole: 15:22

Just want to insert here. He knows. Because you go... he's like so what's your relationship with the guys? Or like you're not in relationships? No. Nicky's sleeping with Jay? No. You're a cousin too? Because he's getting the vibe. And you're like

Arabella: 15:24

Yeah

Nicole: 15:26

Uuh, no answer.(Nicole wheezes a laugh)

Arabella: 15:29

No answer.“So, where in the UK are you from?” Ellis asked interestedly.“I’m complicated”, I responded.“Wow—is there anything about you that is simple?”“Not really”, I said, “my family home is in Somerset. My dad is a Scottish Farmer and my mum an English pirate”. I laughed.(Nicole huffs a laugh)

Nicole: 15:36

Love it.

Arabella: 15:38

“Wait—what?”“My dad’s Scottish”, I smiled, “my mum is from Plymouth”.“Got it”, he smiled. “I guess that makes me a Welsh…uh, sheep?”(Nicole laughs) I chuckled. “I guess it does”.“So, are you going to the after party?”“I’m not sure”, I told him, “But knowing the guys, probably”.“I hope you do”, Ellis said and gently hooked a bit of hair behind my ear.

Nicole: 15:47

Oh!

Arabella: 15:49

Goosebumps ran from my ear down to my feet, and I felt my body react to this man I had such a crush on when I was younger, and probably still did. I absolutely do.

Nicole: 15:52

Yep.

Arabella: 15:54

Still do.

Nicole: 15:56

Yep.

Arabella: 15:58

Yeah.

Nicole: 16:00

Mm. He even looks better now that he's aged a bit. Fuck my life.

Arabella: 16:02

I know.

Nicole: 16:04

Fuck.

Arabella: 16:06

I know, right?

Nicole: 16:08

Why do-? All these men in their 40s just like hitting it so hard on the

Arabella: 16:10

Yeah.

Nicole: 16:12

Hooks.

Arabella: 16:14

Wooh! Okay.

Nicole: 16:16

He's just hooking hair behind your ear and everything. Gawsh.

Arabella: 16:18

Yeah, damn.

Nicole: 16:20

To be fair, he did explicit-you ask- explicitly ask you if you were in a relationship with Zander and you were like no, so...

Arabella: 16:22

Yeah.

Nicole: 16:24

Yeah.

Arabella: 16:26

Man's got moves“I should go”, I said immediately, exhilarated but nervous, “thank you for the wine”.

Nicole: 16:29

Bless your little heart.

Arabella: 16:31

Ooh!

Nicole: 16:33

But to be honest, he fucking hooked your hair behind your ear.

Arabella: 16:35

I know

Nicole: 16:37

Bollocks like

Arabella: 16:39

Ooh!

Nicole: 16:41

Like what to do

Arabella: 16:43

Jesus, ooh. Shiiiit(Nicole chuckles)

Nicole: 16:46

Gosh, this is all sorts of... There's so many loose ends now.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 16:49

Yeah. Well, I would, I would like to first, actually say to all the Welsh people out there I am so sorry how badly I butchered your accent there. I am not great with a Welsh accent, especially a slightly soft one

Nicole: 16:51

Mhm.

Arabella: 16:53

That, that, that was... Hoh my God.

Nicole: 16:55

I think you did reasonably well and I think that when I have to voice Mike Ellis in Season 2 it's going to be way worse, unless I get a practice in before then.(Arabella laughs) I did kind of throw Bella in the deep end. She completely forgot that Mike Ellis was Welsh, or at least that he was in this bit, and then all of a sudden I was like Welsh accent Bella and she was like, `Aah!´

Arabella: 16:59

I was like oh my God, what?

Nicole: 17:01

Why do you hate me?

Arabella: 17:03

Which you know, technically I should be better. My partner lives, has, lives in Wales and has done most of his life and it has a slight accent, every now and again

Nicole: 17:05

Very slight, though.

Arabella: 17:07

He's not Welsh, but he was brought up there.

Nicole: 17:09

Yeah. So, it's probably a good person to, to listen to, for it.

Arabella: 17:11

Yeah, but I can't, I can't, with the sound...mmm I don't know why. It's... no.

Nicole: 17:13

Fair enough. But also, guys, we, we never said that we are doing accurate accents, we're just having a great time and the real reason

Arabella: 17:16

Exactly

Nicole: 17:18

It serves

Arabella: 17:20

And flipping between accents

Nicole: 17:22

Exactly.

Arabella: 17:24

Is wild.

Nicole: 17:26

Like we can do a lot of accents, but sadly going from one to the other is not the easiest. But also, mostly it´s there-

Arabella: 17:28

We haven't done the intense training that we normally do.

Nicole: 17:30

Exactly. And mostly it is there for you to just know more or less who's speaking. That's, that's really the point it serves, and for hilarity.

Arabella: 17:32

Yeah

Nicole: 17:34

When we're like being Californian

Arabella: 17:36

Butchering

Nicole: 17:38

But suddenly we're Texan

Arabella: 17:40

Butchering all accents, even our own, at times.

Nicole: 17:42

Yeah, American Nicole version. Bella Welsh version.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 17:45

When I returned to the auditorium, Zander who was waiting at the door, was annoyed with me immediately.“What’s going on?” I asked innocently.“Were you having a nice flirt with Mike?” he said stiffly.“With Mike?” I asked, confused. “Why would I flirt with Mike? You were there”.“Not Mike, Mike Ellis”,(Nicole snickers) Zander said, even more annoyed.“What are you talking about, Zander?”“I saw you giggling and smiling with him at the bar”, he told me, “And him touching you- ““Did you see me leave promptly then?”“No- ““Very convenient”, I told him, crossing my arms. “I don’t understand why you’re upset, Zander. Is something going on that I’m not aware of? Are we in a relationship of some kind?”“Just because we haven’t named something, doesn’t mean you can go around with other guys”.“I didn’t go around with anyone!” I snapped, “I talked to a musician. You are being ridiculous”.“Am I?” he cried. “Well, good to know. Women always say one thing and mean another”.“I’m sorry you’re having a tough time since Lillian”, I said, a little gentler, “but I’m not her. I do, however need you to be clear about what’s going on here”.

Nicole: 18:02

Fair.

Arabella: 18:04

“I don’t know what to call it”. Yeah, very fair.

Nicole: 18:07

Just before-, yeah, very fair. Because he talks a big `Urh, Nicky dealing with Nicky shit´ and then it's like

Arabella: 18:09

Mm.

Nicole: 18:11

Zander, are you dealing with your shit?

Arabella: 18:13

No

Nicole: 18:15

No. Sorry, please continue.

Arabella: 18:17

Thank you.“I don’t know what to call it”.“That’s fine”, I said, “but I then need you to tell me what this unnamed thing means-are you telling me I’m seeing you exclusively?” He nodded. “At least until the tour is over—after you leave, you can do what you want”.(Nicole gasps) Ooh, wow.

Nicole: 18:24

Wow.

Arabella: 18:26

Yeah.

Nicole: 18:28

Okay.

Arabella: 18:30

I wasn’t going to let it show how much that last part hurt.“All right”, I agreed. “But I can’t stop talking to men for the next three weeks”.“Yes”, he said stiffly. “I’m sorry”.

Nicole: 18:34

Oh, he sounds it,

Arabella: 18:36

Ooh

Nicole: 18:38

He sounds sorry.

Arabella: 18:40

Ohhhh that pisses me off.

Nicole: 18:42

I know.

Arabella: 18:44

Woah.

Nicole: 18:46

But you guys can't be the perfect little couple now, can you?

Arabella: 18:48

No

Nicole: 18:50

That's no fun.

Arabella: 18:52

No fun at all.

Nicole: 18:54

Well, I get like (Nicole blows out a breath of air)... he's feeling a little territorial because he hasn't

Arabella: 18:56

Yes, he is.

Nicole: 18:58

Decided what this relationship means bla-di, bla-di, feelings, so

Arabella: 19:00

He also has past issues.

Nicole: 19:02

Yes, many.

Arabella: 19:04

Infidelity

Nicole: 19:06

Yeah

Arabella: 19:08

Yes

Nicole: 19:10

To be clear guys infidelity, not from his side.

Arabella: 19:12

No

Nicole: 19:14

Yep, he's had problems with that, so, but it's not

Arabella: 19:16

Yes.

Nicole: 19:18

He's not managing his emotions very well, anyway,

Arabella: 19:20

No

Nicole: 19:22

We've all got our little moments.

Arabella: 19:24

We do indeed.(Theme music plays signalling a break) Once we were all back in the limousine after the awards were over, Andrew asked if I enjoyed myself and I answered that I had very much.“Isn’t there an after party?” I asked, frowning.“Yeah”, Noah said. “I’m planning on getting shit-faced tonight!”

Nicole: 19:31

Doesn't he have a show tomorrow?“Where is it?”

Arabella: 19:34

Nicole asked excitedly.

Nicole: 19:36

“And do I get to change before we go?”

Arabella: 19:38

She looked down at the dress.

Nicole: 19:40

“I’m really sorry, Mike—it doesn’t look so great anymore- “

Arabella: 19:42

“That’s all right”, Mike smiled, “I’m pretty sure it can be dry-cleaned”. Nicole looked surprised and relieved.

Nicole: 19:45

“So, the after-party?”

Arabella: 19:47

“What makes you think you’re going?” Mike asked, but he was smiling.

Nicole: 19:49

“Oh-uh-nothing”, she blushed.

Arabella: 19:51

He laughed. “I’m fucking kidding- “

Nicole: 19:53

“Oh”. “So where is it?” Someone answer my fucking question?(Nicole laughs and Arabella chuckles)

Arabella: 19:57

“Some club somewhere in the city”, Mike said just as his mobile started ringing. I laughed at the Barbie Girl ringtone.

Nicole: 19:59

We're never going to let him live this down. Ever.

Arabella: 20:01

No, never. We will always laugh at it.

Nicole: 20:03

Even though I think it's really fucking cool for a

Arabella: 20:05

Same

Nicole: 20:07

Grown ass man to have that as his ringtone. Like that's some

Arabella: 20:09

Yeah

Nicole: 20:11

Boss shit.

Arabella: 20:13

Yeah The other guys seemed oblivious. They obviously had to deal with it on a daily basis.“Wassup, Ellis?”(Nicole chuckles) he smiled, holding the mobile to his ear. Everyone seemed mildly interested in the conversation Mike was having. “Cool, dude...Yeah, man...wait...” Mike glanced down at his watch. “We’ll probably be there in about ten minutes”.“Be where?” Zander asked, suddenly moody again.“After party”, Mike responded.“No, I’m not going”, Zander said.“Zander, come on”, I pleaded,“We talked about this”.“I don’t want to go”, Zander sustained

Nicole: 20:25

Aah. Oh my gosh, Zander, what?

Arabella: 20:27

Such a fucking child.

Arabella & Nicole: 20:29

Right now

Nicole: 20:31

He is, yeah.

Arabella: 20:33

“You guys go if you want- “ Mike sighed. “Sorry, man”, he said into the mobile. “We’re leaving for Rome in like two hours, so-yeah-we’ll catch up in Berlin. No problem, man. Right. Bye”.

Nicole: 20:36

I love how quickly Mike just turned around on that because Zander was hav-, he was not happy.

Arabella: 20:38

Yeah

Nicole: 20:40

You have to hand it to them. As a band, they're like solid, solid bros.

Arabella: 20:42

Yeah,(Nicole chuckles) Yeah.

Nicole: 20:46

He doesn't know what's happening, but he's like m-m not feeling this.

Arabella: 20:48

Something's happening here.

Nicole: 20:50

Yeah

Arabella: 20:52

He hung up.

Nicole: 20:54

“What?”

Arabella: 20:56

Nicole asked, confused.

Nicole: 20:58

“I thought we were- “

Arabella: 21:00

“Just leave it”, I told her. “I’ll talk to you later”. Jason grabbed Nicole unexpectedly and pressed her down onto the sofa on the far end of the limousine. “We’ll have our own after party”, he said, proceeding to lift the skirt of her dress. Holy shit

Nicole: 21:04

“Jay!” What the fuck is happening?“Andrew’s in here!” And also just pause to reflect. Was this not him saying he wasn't gonna touch me, or did we clear that up again?

Arabella: 21:09

You cleared that up a little bit again.

Nicole: 21:11

Oh, cool, cool, cool. So now he's going

Arabella: 21:13

Yeah

Nicole: 21:15

For full, lifting my skirt.

Arabella: 21:17

Yeah

Nicole: 21:19

Yeah

Arabella: 21:21

“Jay, what the hell are you doing?” Mike demanded.“We never got to drink our shots”, Jason replied nonchalantly. “Noah and I were going to drink them from Nicky’s bellybutton”.(Nicole scoffs)“Wait—why can you not just drink them from a shot glass?” I asked them.“Where’s the fun in that?” Noah smiled.“Has Nicky consented to this?” Mike asked diplomatically.

Nicole: 21:28

“I did”

Arabella: 21:30

Nicole said, still being held down on the sofa.

Nicole: 21:32

“But Andrew clearly hasn’t”. Clearly, I obviously consented because fuck yeah, but

Arabella: 21:35

Yes

Nicole: 21:37

Andrew hasn't. Clearly hasn't.

Arabella: 21:39

“Can we wait until we arrive at the hotel?” Andrew asked.

Nicole: 21:41

Bless him

Arabella: 21:43

Listen, I know.

Nicole: 21:45

He sounds very worried.

Arabella: 21:47

He's just like I, I Just

Nicole: 21:49

I'm tired.

Arabella: 21:50

I don't want to be here right now.(Nicole laughs) I'm too old for this shit.

Nicole: 21:56

“Hey, if we wait until the hotel, you can have as many as you want, right?”(Nicole puffs a laugh)

Arabella: 21:59

“All right”.(Nicole chuckles) Jason pulled her back up, so she was sitting next to him. When Nicole caught my eye, she grinned. Clearly, she was still enjoying herself.

Nicole: 22:04

What is not to be enjoyed?

Arabella: 22:06

Indeed

Nicole: 22:08

(Still chuckling) But seriously, why? Why shots

Arabella: 22:11

I know

Nicole: 22:13

From the bellybutton? Could you not think of something more fun to do? I don't know.

Arabella: 22:15

Well, you're still not supposed to be sleeping with others.

Nicole: 22:17

This is not sleeping, clearly.

Arabella: 22:19

Yes, but that's what you want.

Nicole: 22:21

Oh right, I see what you mean.

Arabella: 22:23

And that's the more fun.

Nicole: 22:25

Okay, same. This is as close as we can come to skirting the line.

Arabella: 22:27

Yeah.

Nicole: 22:29

Back at the hotel, we went through the usual motions of saying goodnight to everyone, but Jason absolutely insisted that he couldn’t go to sleep until he has specifically had a shot from my bellybutton.(Arabella snorts a laugh) By that time Noah had lost interest, but Jason wasn't letting it go.

Arabella: 22:33

Hmm…

Nicole: 22:35

“Yes,”

Arabella: 22:37

Suspicious.

Nicole: 22:39

Yeah, don't give stuff away (In a quiet metal growl).

Arabella: 22:41

Oh no, sorry!

Nicole: 22:43

“Yes, Jay, yes”, I told him, “Just let me say goodnight to everyone and I promise you—we’ll do it”. Mm-hmm. My status seemed to have been upgraded, as the whole band kissed me on the cheek.

Arabella: 22:47

Aww!

Nicole: 22:49

Even Andrew kissed me on the cheek but escaped as quickly as he could.(Nicole huffs a laugh) I think he'd had his fill for the night. He's like oh, cheers!

Arabella: 22:54

I don't think that's fine. He's like yep, let me get the fuck out of here before something else happens.

Nicole: 22:56

Before… orgies, all of them.

Mike stood watching as everybody kissed my cheek, then turned to Jason and said: 22:57

“Don’t take too long—she and I need to talk”.“No problem”, Jason winked at Mike. “This will be a quickie”. Oh god. Mike laughed.(Arabella makes a worried noise)“Ten minutes, Nicky, no hanging around past your bedtime”. Ooh that one was…(Arabella laughs) That was specific.“Yes, Sir”. Of course, that meant not to sleep there like last time. Yeah. Before the others started up the stairs, Jason took my hand and lugged me after him.(Arabella giggles)“Jay, heeled boots, heeled boots”, I called after him, as I struggled to keep up. And a long ass dress and death, death combination!

Arabella: 23:13

Death.

Nicole: 23:15

“Oh, oh, sorry”, he said, and slowed his pace for me to keep up. Jason and I arrived in the suite before Zander and Bella did. Which is exactly what he wanted. This is a man with a plan.

Arabella: 23:18

Oh yeah.

When Jason closed his temporary bedroom door behind us, I asked: 23:20

“So what are you drinking from me then?” He laughed. “Nothing—that was just pretence to get you here- “ Uh, oh. My heart bounced around wildly. Because obviously my thoughts have gone all over the place, right?

Arabella: 23:26

Oh yeah, All the dirty things. You mean sexy time?

Nicole: 23:28

Do you mean sexy time?

Arabella: 23:30

That is where your brain has gone.

Obviously, and also: 23:32

10 minutes.

Arabella: 23:34

Yeah

Nicole: 23:36

We only have 10 minutes, though. That's fine, I'll take it.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 23:39

You'll take that 10.

Nicole: 23:41

Yeah.“What do you mean?”“What I just told you”, he said, “I lured you here under false pretences”.“But—you’ve wanted to do this all night”, I continued, “wait—you’ve been pretending all night just so I’d end up here?” He grinned, nodding. Also, how the f...? Okay, he's good“That’s sneaky as fuck”, I told him, “But Noah?”“He knows nothing”, Jason said, “he just thought it would be fun—for real”.(Arabella snorts a laugh)“Right—” I swallowed, suddenly nervous. “So, what do you want that you went to all this trouble?”“Have you spoken to Mike yet?” he asked, raising his eyebrows.“No, Jay, that’s what- ““You’re running out of time, aren’t you?” he reminded me, “it’s technically already morning”.“Jay—you’re literally preventing me from speaking to Mike right now”, I told him, “I was planning on doing it”.(Arabella chuckles)“Really?” Jason asked

Arabella: 23:58

Exactly.

Nicole: 24:00

Huh?

Arabella: 24:02

You make a very solid point there.

Nicole: 24:04

I do for once. Now that, now that I've, like, like, sorted my brain out, I'm like yeah.“Really?”

Arabella: 24:07

Also, it's not like you would do it at the awards, where, you know you're not supposed to be talking about that shit.

Nicole: 24:09

Yeah, meh, well, I suppose we could have found a little corner, but… pfff.

Arabella: 24:11

Yeah.

Nicole: 24:13

“Really?” Jason asked, “just before he goes to sleep?” Oh, he might be making sure I do it. That's probably what he's doing.

Arabella: 24:16

Yeah, that´s fair.

Nicole: 24:18

He's like you fucking do this, today, right now.

Arabella: 24:20

Yeah

Nicole: 24:22

I think he's trying to put the fear in me a little bit.

Arabella: 24:24

Yes

Nicole: 24:26

Which, it's, it's working. It's working very well.

Arabella: 24:28

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Nicole: 24:30

“I was hoping it would be before we, you know- ““Fuck?”“Well, yeah- “I blushed, “he’d be more inclined to listen with- ““-your lips around his cock?” I blushed even deeper. What is he doing?“Blunt but yeah” Then I frowned, “technically I wouldn’t be able to speak with my lips around his—so what is the point of this, Jay?(Arabella laughs) Besides trying to make me as uncomfortable as possible?” Clearly, fucking hell.“I had an awesome night tonight, an awesome time.”, he told me, “And I think so did you?” Is he dating me now? Like, what is he doing?

Arabella: 24:43

I don't know.

Nicole: 24:45

“Of course, but what-?”“Bella told me that you’re very anxious here and that it was influencing your behaviour”, he explained, “so I wanted to ask you if you think it’s good for you to be here?”“Yes” Wow, fuck.

Arabella: 24:50

That's not what I meant.

Nicole: 24:52

Sure, that's what he got. Why does he do this? He like, he like, gets you all like soft and he rips the rug, like super hard.

Arabella: 24:54

Yeah, yeah.

Nicole: 24:56

Fuck my life.“Yes”, I responded instantaneously. “I love being here- “ He frowned. “I know that—but is it good for you?”“You don’t think it’s good for me?” I asked nervously, “you want me to leave?”“I don’t”, he sighed, “I, I don’t think anyone wants you to leave but it’s definitely been complicated”.“I know”, I said, “but I’ll try to be better—I’ll make an effort and- ““Nicole, you have been making an effort”, he said kindly, Aw, thank you.

Arabella: 25:05

Aww.

Nicole: 25:07

“I don’t want you to be even more confused, but I think Mike was impulsive bringing you on the tour- ““You’re normally the impulsive one- “

Arabella: 25:10

Ooh

Nicole: 25:12

“Exactly”, he confirmed, “that’s why I wonder why Mike’s so invested in you. He’s never brought anyone but Ava on tour with us- ““So, what are you saying?”“I don’t think this is good for Mike either”, he clarified.“Have you told” -

Arabella: 25:17

Damn

Nicole: 25:19

“Mike about your feelings?” I wondered. He like sits with all of this and just like flings it at you all at once.

Arabella: 25:22

Yeah!

Nicole: 25:24

“I don’t think this is good for Mike either”, he clarified.“Have you told Mike about your feelings?” I wondered.“I think you should be the one to do it”, he told me. “Communication has been one of the things that has overcomplicated everything”.“You want me to tell Mike that I don’t think I’m good for him?” I frowned.“I think you need to talk about the whole relationship”, he told me, “So that´s it. Not so limiting and both you and Mike can chill- ““Not so limiting?” I asked, “you think I should be able to have sex with other people?”“You’re already doing that”, he reminded me, “but you shouldn’t be hiding it -

Arabella: 25:32

Damn

Nicole: 25:34

- it will fuck everything up. “

Arabella: 25:36

Savage, but fair.

Fair enough, but also: 25:38

gosh, okay.

Arabella: 25:40

Damn

Nicole: 25:42

“Is this so you can have sex with me?” I asked courageously. Bless me, oh noooo, why?

Arabella: 25:45

Oh

Nicole: 25:47

Nothing, I mean, I want to say nothing he's done so far should make me confident in asking this question. But then... it's confusing as fuck actually.

Arabella: 25:49

Mmm, yes.

Nicole: 25:51

To be fair

Arabella: 25:53

And of course, you're hopeful.

Nicole: 25:55

Of course,“Is this so you can have sex with me?” I asked courageously.“Definitely not”, he laughed, Fuckin´

Arabella: 26:01

He laughed

Nicole: 26:03

He laughed

Arabella: 26:05

That's, damn that´s cold.

Nicole: 26:07

I don't think it's cold, it's a little bit...

Arabella: 26:09

No, it just seems a bit harsh.

Nicole: 26:11

Careless.“It’s already complicated enough”. Shit. Maybe Mike was right. I was too into Jason. Oh yeah

Arabella: 26:16

Oh baby

Nicole: 26:18

I am. Mike is right, everyone's right, Jason is right

Arabella: 26:20

I'm right.

Nicole: 26:22

You're right, everyone's... Well, you and him are saying the same thing in a very roundabout

Arabella: 26:24

Yeah.

Nicole: 26:26

Way.

Arabella: 26:28

Yeah

Nicole: 26:30

But it's pffft. Urgh, he doesn't need... He can stop fucking rubbing in that he doesn't want to fuck me, that's just. It's getting

Arabella: 26:32

Cruel

Nicole: 26:34

Shitty now.

Arabella: 26:36

Yeah

Nicole: 26:38

I'm butthurt(Nicole huffs a laugh)

Arabella: 26:41

Yes, you are, and not the fun way.

Nicole: 26:43

“I didn’t say that to hurt your feelings”, he refined, “I’m a huge flirt and I’m tactile. I don’t want you to misunderstand our friendship.” But like, but like, but like, but like mm, Jason.

Arabella: 26:46

But it's known.

Nicole: 26:48

You make me misunderstand it all the time. It's very confusing.

Arabella: 26:50

Yes!

Nicole: 26:52

“But I like you a lot and I like spending time with you”. You mean playing with me. Fuck. It hurt a lot more than just saying, ‘I’m not that into you’. Yeah.

Arabella: 26:56

Yeah

Nicole: 26:58

Just say that man.

Arabella: 27:00

Yeah, fuck´s sake.

Nicole: 27:02

I swallowed sadly. “Thank you for being clear…again, Jay”. Yeah.

Arabella: 27:05

Damn.

“You should go speak to Mike now- ”“I’m going”, I said, “Would it be weird - ”Arabella: 27:08

Gut punch

Nicole: 27:10

-if we hug?” What?

Arabella: 27:13

It was a bit of a gut punch, really.

Nicole: 27:15

It's not the first time he's told me he's not...

No, but, but... pfffNicole: 27:18

Yeah.“I’m going”, I said, “Would it be weird if we hug?” Yes, Nicole, I'm answering this for myself. It would probably be a little weird.

Arabella: 27:22

You are weird though, you guys are weird though

Nicole: 27:24

I think we're past weird now.

Arabella: 27:26

Yeah

Nicole: 27:28

I don't know what the fuck is happening. He answered my question by pulling me into hug.“Just checking the whole distancing yourself from me-thing?” Because that was not going well tonight“Forget that”,

Arabella: 27:34

No.

Nicole: 27:36

He told me, “I don’t know why I said that. I can’t do distancing”.“Fantastic”, I grinned, “me neither”. No.(Arabella laughs) No one with ADHD... I mean, we have boundaries, but like, it's very difficult when you like someone to not like, speak to them

Arabella: 27:42

Yeah

Nicole: 27:44

When you want to.

Arabella: 27:46

And, and hold, and hug them and shit.

Nicole: 27:48

Exactly so... He may not want to fuck me, but he obviously likes me, otherwise he wouldn't go through all this trouble.

Arabella: 27:50

Yes. Exactly.

Nicole: 27:52

Also, can I just cry over this for a second? Why? Why doesn't he want to fuck me?

Arabella: 27:54

I think he does, but it´s

Nicole: 27:56

I'm adorable!

Arabella: 27:58

You are adorable, but you're confused and over-complicated with everything and stressed and

Nicole: 28:00

Yeah

Arabella: 28:02

He knows how much you adore him.

Nicole: 28:04

Yeah, that´s complicated.

Arabella: 28:06

I think, he just doesn't want to, to

Nicole: 28:08

Have a power imbalance?

Arabella: 28:10

Spin you out too much.

Nicole: 28:12

Maybe it´s a power-imbalance thing.

Arabella: 28:14

He doesn´t want to spin you out.

Nicole: 28:16

Yeah.

Arabella: 28:18

No, I don't think, I don´t think it's a power balance. I think it's a doesn't want you to spin out and get hurt thing.

Nicole: 28:20

Well, he's doing a good amount of the hurting himself, to be fair, but okay.

Arabella: 28:22

Yeah

Nicole: 28:24

And this is about the time I think in my brain I'm like, yeah, I need to let, I need to just accept that Jay's thing is friendship.

Arabella: 28:26

Yeah, he-

Nicole: 28:28

He's a little bit of an overbearing, tactile friend. Well,

Arabella: 28:30

Yeah

Nicole: 28:32

(Nicole sighs) Confusing as fuck.

Arabella: 28:35

Yeah.

Nicole: 28:37

While walking back to Mike's suite, I wept, over Jason, I hoped for the last time.

Arabella: 28:39

Yeah

Nicole: 28:41

It will not be the last time.

Arabella: 28:43

Probably not.

Nicole: 28:45

No.

Arabella: 28:47

It will not be.

Nicole: 28:49

If he was just a little shitter at drums, I, that would be great.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 28:52

Yeah

Nicole: 28:54

I cleaned off my face before entering the suite.“Hey”, I greeted Mike, who was loosening his tie and unbuttoning his shirt. Yes, this is going the right way.(Nicole huffs a laugh)

Arabella: 28:59

Yeah. Unbutton

Arabella & Nicole: 29:01

All

Arabella: 29:03

The buttons

Arabella & Nicole: 29:05

Please.

Nicole: 29:07

“Would you like -”

Arabella: 29:09

Just remove it all.

Nicole: 29:11

All of it.“Would you like a drink?” he asked.“Yes, please”, I said, smiling weakly. He poured himself a whiskey from a bottle and took a sip.“It’s warm”. He cringed as he lowered the glass from his lips. “Should I order you something else?”“No”, I said. “Don’t worry about it. Warm whiskey will do”. He handed me the drink. “Why do you look so sad?”“Because I’m afraid of this talk, we’re about to have- “ When I looked towards Mike-

Arabella: 29:21

And Jason just dashed your dreams.

Nicole: 29:23

It's, it's a bit of both. It's both the dashed dreams

Arabella: 29:25

Yeah

Nicole: 29:27

And the talk we're about to have. Especially because he's dashed my dreams. I think I'm very much on the `He's gonna send me home and I'll be okay´

Arabella: 29:29

You will not be okay.

Nicole: 29:31

I will not be okay; I will fucking not

Arabella: 29:33

Not at all.

Nicole: 29:35

Be okay. No. It's fine.

Arabella: 29:37

And I'll come with you

Nicole: 29:39

All these- Are you coming with me? Okay, bless you. Zander´s gonna be very upset with your shit. If you come with me. Anyway,

Arabella: 29:42

I know

Nicole: 29:44

Sorry we should probably stop.

Arabella: 29:46

I´d feel awful. I would feel awful not going with you, unless you made me stay,

Nicole: 29:48

You are dancing, you are contracted, you'll be fined.

Arabella: 29:50

Oh yeah, shit!

Nicole: 29:52

You munchkin, you can't come with me.

Arabella: 29:54

As a best friend, I would go with you, though.

Nicole: 29:56

You won't.

Arabella: 29:58

But as I contractedly-

Nicole: 30:00

You couldn't.

Arabella: 30:02

Dancing person

Nicole: 30:04

You would fuck up your whole life.

Arabella: 30:06

I cannot.

Nicole: 30:08

Yeah

Arabella: 30:10

No, but I´d want to.

Nicole: 30:12

But the thought counts. Well done, well done you.

Arabella: 30:14

Yeah

Nicole: 30:16

“Because I’m afraid of this talk, we’re about to have- “ When I looked towards Mike, his face was contorted in something that looked like regret. “I know—me, too”. He came to sit down next to me on the bed. He turned to look at me intently. “You know, you can leave whenever you want”. I felt a strong pang of sadness and fear. “What is with all of you tonight?” I asked, “I don’t want to leave! I’m your biggest fan.” He laughed. “I haven’t noticed- “(Arabella laughs) I blushed. “What I mean is-if I leave here, I’ll have to start paying for your gigs again”.(Nicole bursts a laugh)

Arabella: 30:25

Yes, that's what you mean.

Nicole: 30:27

Well done, let's make it light.

Arabella: 30:29

Yes

Nicole: 30:31

And that, but that is true.

Arabella: 30:33

Yeah

Nicole: 30:35

Imagine seeing your favourite band almost every night for fucking free. Yes, that's the life I want.

Arabella: 30:38

Yeah

Nicole: 30:40

Make that happen.

Arabella: 30:42

That's fucking golden.

Nicole: 30:44

Yeah

Arabella: 30:46

Great and...

Nicole: 30:48

That and you get to dance the rest of the tour and I just have to go home and what? Wank?

Arabella: 30:50

Yeah.

Nicole: 30:52

Nah.

Arabella: 30:54

Yeah,(Nicole huffs a laugh) Nah, nah, nah.

Nicole: 30:58

He smiled and to my surprise pulled me into his arms for my second hug of the night.

Arabella: 31:00

Aww!

Nicole: 31:02

We're hugging more than we ever have before.

Arabella: 31:04

I know

Nicole: 31:06

When he released me, I frowned at him. “Are you okay?” He-(Nicole laughs) Bloody hell, Michael!

Arabella: 31:10

(Arabella laughs) Yeah, you're hugging me a lot right now. Are you dying? Are you sending me home?

Nicole: 31:13

Are you sending me home? Yeah. When he released me, I frowned at him. “Are you okay?” He took a breath. “Okay, I just want to say-“He paused and cringed.“What?” I pressed, my heart racing. “Are you going to ask me to leave?”“No, I’d rather find an alternative.”“Right—well, I have to tell you something too- ”“Okay, you go first then- “ I swallowed the knot in my throat. “You’re not going to like it- ”“Is it that bad?”“It’s not good”, I told him, “I broke a rule—a big one”. He turned his full attention on me, searching my eyes. “What happened?” I blew out a long breath and he raised his eyebrows. “Wow—what the fuck is it?”“We have to be better about our communication”, I told him, “I know I’ve been shit about it, and normally I’m not- “ He nodded. “I agree, I can be clearer too”.“So, I need to tell you what I did”, I said, “even though it’s really hard and I’m a terrible slut”. Aww, that´s(Arabella cackles and Nicole laughs)“Okay—so I’m starting to understand the direction you’re going in—” He sighed, surprisingly calm. “Who did you have sex with?”“Someone in the band-”“I figured”, he alleged, “Jay?” I shook my head. “It was Carter”.

Arabella: 31:34

And that's where we're leaving you. Eee!

Nicole: 31:36

So sorry, you guys-

Arabella: 31:38

We're so sorry. Until next season.

Nicole: 31:40

But you know what, we promise-

Arabella: 31:42

What will be the fallout?

Nicole: 31:44

Yeah, so we don't, we don´t know if I'm staying on tour or not, until season two. Bless you all for being.

Arabella: 31:46

Aahhhhh!

Nicole: 31:48

Please don't punish us.

Arabella: 31:50

Yes, please don't, don't hate us.

Nicole: 31:52

(Nicole chuckling) They won't hate us. I don't think, but, we want to keep you on your tippy-toes, otherwise you might not come back.

Arabella: 31:55

Exactly. Come back to us, don't leave us. We're so happy here.

Nicole: 31:57

Um, I'm glad- the thing is, what I meant why you're gonna have a little release is clearly, after all this time of watching me shenanigan-ing and watching me kind of lose my mind and being super anxious and all this stuff, we're finally fucking sorting it out and that's cool.

Arabella: 31:59

We're having clear communication.

Nicole: 32:01

I'm fucking here for it.

Arabella: 32:03

Even if it's gut punching.

Nicole: 32:05

So fucking gut punching.

Arabella: 32:07

Yeah

Nicole: 32:09

I love that man, the fuck of my life.

Arabella: 32:11

I know, I know.(Nicole laughs) We're all having problems tonight.

Nicole: 32:15

Apparently, this is it. We're climaxing to the... to the climax.

Arabella: 32:17

Yeah, because like me and Zander...

Nicole: 32:19

Yep.

Arabella: 32:21

What the fuck?

Nicole: 32:23

Yep

Arabella: 32:25

Yeah. Jealousy

Nicole: 32:27

Again. That's what happens. When you don't put clear, you don’t, you, everyone's not clear on what's going on here. That's what happens.

Arabella: 32:29

Exactly.

Nicole: 32:31

Yeah

Arabella: 32:33

Yeah

Nicole: 32:35

But more on that in season two as well. What we can leave you with - with much love and promises - is that we will be working our butts off, our butts off. While you're hearing this, we're already working our butts off on Season 2.

Arabella: 32:37

Two yeah, we're not, we're not stopping, we're just... we're blasting through.

Nicole: 32:39

We're just getting railed by this podcast day and night.

Arabella: 32:41

Oh yeah.(Nicole laughs) Big time. Just for you,

Nicole: 32:45

Just for you.

Arabella: 32:47

All right!

Nicole: 32:49

So, we hope you're enjoying it. Please, um, hang out with us. Like we are available on our socials and stuff, as much as we can.

Arabella: 32:51

Yeah

Nicole: 32:53

That sounded a little Californian. Wow, sorry, I'm having a hard time.

Arabella: 32:55

Letting go.

Nicole: 32:57

Yeah

Arabella: 32:59

Getting out of there.

Nicole: 33:01

Yeah. So yeah, but it's, it's, it's... We are so happy, we are so happy that this is happening, and we would love you to be

Arabella: 33:03

Yeah.

Nicole: 33:05

Even more involved. If you think you're bothering us, you're not.

Arabella: 33:07

Yeah. Send us mail, send us- that there's bits on our website that say you can send us messages. Do! Or contact us on social media.

Nicole: 33:10

Chat with us

Arabella: 33:12

We're excited, we want to, we want to be with you guys.

Nicole: 33:14

We want to talk.

Arabella: 33:16

We're building a community.

Nicole: 33:18

Exactly.

Arabella: 33:20

Yes.

Nicole: 33:22

Do not send us dick pics, that's all we ask you not to do

Arabella: 33:24

Yes, please.

Nicole: 33:26

Or like inappropriate shit. But that's obviously very clear.

Arabella: 33:28

Yes, silly shit, we're all for it.

Nicole: 33:30

Yeah, silly is good, silly is good.

Arabella: 33:32

Silly is great.

Nicole: 33:34

Or your questions?

Arabella: 33:36

Weird shit too.

Or whatever. We, we did, we were on a friend's podcast last night and um, he did bring up a thing that was very interesting and I think it might bear witness to what we're doing here, is to say: 33:38

Do you ask us your questions about kink. We'll do our best to answer you, though it's important to say we are not kink educators. We've been in the scene

Arabella: 33:40

We are not.

Nicole: 33:42

Over a decade and we can definitely help you, especially if some of these things like (Nicole makes a clicking sound) click, like take your fancy, you- because there are things... You can ask us about that.

Arabella: 33:44

Yeah. And we will give you little gentle pushes in the right directions

Nicole: 33:46

Yeah

Arabella: 33:48

Of where to find stuff, or

Nicole: 33:50

M-hm

Arabella: 33:52

We'll let you know what we can let you know about

Nicole: 33:54

If you are interested in kink, we can give you the resources for people who can educate you more in kink.

Arabella: 33:56

Yeah

Nicole: 33:58

Yeah.

Arabella: 34:00

Or if you just want to know what it's all about, even if it's not your thing, but you want to kink-ask-why.

Nicole: 34:02

Yeah.

Arabella: 34:04

Never kink-shame.

Arabella & Nicole: 34:06

Kink-Ask-Why.

Nicole: 34:08

Very cool.

Arabella: 34:10

Yes.

Nicole: 34:12

And also, you'll be happy to know that we'll soon be releasing some out-takes and things.

Arabella: 34:14

Yeah!

Nicole: 34:16

And you don't have to have Patreon

Arabella: 34:18

We have plans!

Nicole: 34:20

Or buy me a Coffee or anything like that yet. We're going to release them all for free on all the, all the places where you listen to the podcast, because Season 2 will start reserving those things.

Arabella: 34:22

Some of those things. Not all

Nicole: 34:24

Some of those things. There'll still be plenty of material for everyone to listen to, and the podcast will always stay free. That is something that we are

Arabella: 34:26

Yes

Nicole: 34:28

Have decided together. We would like the story to stay free.

Arabella: 34:30

Very, we feel very strongly about

Nicole: 34:32

Yeah

Arabella: 34:34

Because, yes, we do need to make some money,

Nicole: 34:36

M-hm.

Arabella: 34:38

But we want you guys to carry on and enjoy and

Nicole: 34:40

Yeah

Arabella: 34:42

(Arabella lets out a low roar)

Nicole: 34:44

Because, as people who like stories,

Arabella: 34:46

We´re excited

Nicole: 34:48

Ourselves. We would hate for to hear like a whole season and then for people to go oh, and now it's not free anymore. Ooh, the death.

Arabella: 34:50

We would be furious.

Nicole: 34:52

So furious. Anyway.

Arabella: 34:54

But, also on another note, we will also - next time - not leave you with such a gap between Season Part 1 and Part 2.

Nicole: 34:56

Oh, yes,

Arabella: 34:58

Even if there is a Part 1 and 2, because we have learnt

Nicole: 35:00

How to do this.

Arabella: 35:02

From…(Nicole chuckles) Yes, from the beginning of this, of how to work better.

Nicole: 35:06

Yep.

Arabella: 35:08

So, we promise you guys, we, we apologise sincerely for how big of a break it was,

Nicole: 35:10

M-hm.

Arabella: 35:12

But season two will come bigger and better, and we're excited and we cannot wait for you to hear it once we're done.

Nicole: 35:14

M-hm.

Arabella: 35:16

But, as always, we love sharing this with you and thank you for listening to us. Anyway…

Nicole: 35:18

All right, you guys, we're going to love and leave you there until Season 2.

Arabella: 35:20

2

Nicole: 35:22

Have a wonderful time. We love you all.

Arabella: 35:24

Love you all.

Nicole: 35:26

Goodbye

Arabella: 35:28

Bye! Thank you, as always, for listening to us. Please follow us on all our socials, interact with us. We love it, and please don't forget to subscribe and share.

Nicole: 35:32

And also, if you could support us, please consider buying us a coffee. You can buy us a coffee monthly, so it's you know every month, or you can give us a one-off donation it means the world to us. And also, free and quick please consider rating the show. Please, and thank you.

Arabella: 35:34

Thank you. Please and thank you, thank you and please.(Theme music plays out with lyrics)“…. Hanging on to everything you said. And everything you did was so wonderful! So unbelievable! What is this world without you? We’re hanging on to what you were, even if it hurts!...”