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Unruly Confessions Ep 12 - Sticky

Arabella: 0:03

The following podcast contains adult themes, graphic sexual content, strong language, alcohol and drug references, and some infrequent violence. Everything you need for a wild ride.

Nicole: 0:05

The Band we have created for the podcast was inspired by many of our favourite bands, but they are all made up and fictional and most of the events are fictional too. Some of the events are inspired by things Bella and I have experienced, but the story as a whole is fictional.(Podcast theme music plays – Rat Head by Big Mouse Tree House)

Arabella: 0:08

Welcome back to Unruly Confessions.

Nicole: 0:10

Whoop, whoop, whoop!

Arabella: 0:12

Hi guys, we're back!

Nicole: 0:14

Hello!

Arabella: 0:16

Woooo! So, as it's been a while, I'm Arabella

Nicole: 0:19

And I am Nicole or Nicky but don't call me that actually or bitch, but not Nicky.

Arabella: 0:21

On, only, only, only I'm allowed to call her Nicky.

Nicole: 0:23

Yeah

Arabella: 0:25

She’s my Nicky.

Nicole: 0:27

Yes,(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 0:30

Like a hickey from Nicky

Nicole: 0:32

Like, ooh, I don't hate that, isn't it isn't that from Grease? A hickey from Kenickie(Arabella makes a weird growly sound as she says this… not a clue what I was doing there!)

Arabella: 0:35

Well yeah Kenickie, exactly.(Nicole laughs) I was like, I, is, Kenickie's, not gonna work. So, I was like from Nicky, and I was like, IT STILL WORKS!

Nicole: 0:39

I, I thought Kenickie was really hot.

Arabella: 0:41

So did I.

Nicole: 0:43

Which is a problem because I was like six when I watched that movie for the first time.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 0:46

Yeah, yeah,

Nicole: 0:48

And I was like, that one.

Arabella: 0:50

(At the same time as Nicole) The crushes I had on those guys, and, and they were definitely in their 20s, almost 30s.

Nicole: 0:52

Ahhhhhh yeah,(Nicole laughs) I fear they were more like 30.(Nicole continues to laugh)

Arabella: 0:57

30, yeah

Nicole: 0:59

30 and we were six. The age gap was

Arabella: 1:02

Well, the women, the women might have been in their 20s.

Nicole: 1:04

Yes,

Arabella: 1:06

The men were in their 30s

Nicole: 1:08

Oh, for sure. Oh my gosh, do you remember that one guy, the one guy with the face? What was his name? From the rival school.

Arabella: 1:11

Yes, oh…

Nicole: 1:13

They wanted us to believe that man was a teenager.

Arabella: 1:15

I know, I know it was ridiculous

Nicole: 1:17

That 38-year-old was a teenager.

Arabella: 1:19

I know, I know what was his. All I remember is crater face.

Nicole: 1:21

Yeah, because that's what his face looked like,

Arabella: 1:23

Because that w, that insult is the only way I have his name in my head,

Nicole: 1:25

Crater faaccceee (Growly)

Arabella: 1:27

Crater Face

Nicole: 1:29

Sorry. What is this podcast about? Bella?

Arabella: 1:31

Oh shit

Nicole: 1:33

This is not Grease. We're not here to talk about Grease.(Both laughing)

Arabella: 1:36

As you can see, always on our tangents, always on our tangents.

Nicole: 1:38

Always on our tangents Right, so,

Arabella: 1:41

Dear Lord, we had a plan and everything to make sure we didn't tangent.

Nicole: 1:43

Yes. And so, we are back after our mid-season break. It's been a while,

Arabella: 1:47

Yes

Nicole: 1:49

Absolutely has

Arabella: 1:51

It's been a while and, sorry, it has been an extended one, and that's due to me and my health. I'm not sure if we've actually mentioned this before,

Nicole: 1:53

I don’t think so

Arabella: 1:55

But I have a thing called fibromyalgia. Some of you will know about it, some of you won't. It's, uh, it's a chronic fatigue and pain. Um, little thing. Well, not little, it's huge.

Nicole: 1:58

Yeah

Arabella: 2:00

The body it just doesn't work.

Nicole: 2:02

Disfunctions the whole thing.

Arabella: 2:04

And on top of that you get like a whole host of other conditions and it's, like you know, condition palooza going on.(Nicole laughs) But basically, I think my body got overwhelmed with everything and we were working so hard,

Nicole: 2:08

Yep

Arabella: 2:10

and I'm starting a new relationship, and I was also trying to do stuff for me and managing my condition, and I wasn't really handling it well and then my body went YOU MUST STOP!

Nicole: 2:12

Yep.

Arabella: 2:14

And so, it made me stop, because your body literally does, you can't do anything about it, it just happens and you're not going anywhere until it says okay, you can move.

Nicole: 2:16

Yep,

Arabella: 2:18

(Super sarcastically) So, that was fun!

Nicole: 2:20

Yeah, but what was actually fun and not sarcastically fun was during the holidays we actually got to be together in the flesh, in the real flesh.

Arabella: 2:22

Exactly, in the flesh and it was so exciting because I miss her. I know I get to see her pretty much every day as we work.

Nicole: 2:24

But it's not the same.

Arabella: 2:26

But it's not the same.

Nicole: 2:28

No. So, we spent like three days together at my parents' place in the north of England and my husband was there and Bella's new beau was there, and we all got to meet and we all got to hang out and that was fun.

Arabella: 2:30

Which was exciting, because I think he's here to stay,(Nicole squeals a little) which is very exciting. In fact, I think you will see all of you who follow our socials even got a little photo of him, because we are that much. He was face

Nicole: 2:34

Down

Arabella: 2:36

Flat, faced down on a bed, because it was like ooh dear god, so much.

Nicole: 2:38

Hang on. I think we need to explain. (Nicole laughs as she speaks) That sounded so us.

Arabella: 2:40

Yes, sorry.

Nicole: 2:42

What she means by that is that that we, we were just a lot of energy, and he needed a break. It wasn't anything. uh, this podcast related(Nicole laughs a lot)

Arabella: 2:46

No, no, no, nothing on the sexual side. It was more just. We, we get excited around each other. No, there we go again!

Nicole: 2:48

There it is! We can't undo

Arabella: 2:51

Not that sort of excited, but we get….we’re excitable people!

Nicole: 2:53

But also speaking of that sort of excited. We are, the four of us, so Bella me, my husband and, and Haz her, her partner. We are all going to go see one of our favourite bands in June and, holy crap, they are not ready for it!

Arabella: 2:55

They are scared

Nicole: 2:57

No one is ready for it!

Arabella: 2:59

They are scared

Nicole: 3:01

Our favourite band isn't ready for it! No one is ready for it.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 3:05

We're excited and they're, let's be honest, they're ready for the concert, not for us.

Nicole: 3:07

Oh, that's true, they're ready for the concert, but they've both expressed concern about seeing us watching that band.

Arabella: 3:09

Yes, to a point that Nicole's husband, before he physically met Haz, even sent him a voice note going ‘I am scared, (Nicole laughs hard) help, we'll stick together.’

Nicole: 3:11

‘We'll pretend we don't know them if it gets too much.’

Arabella: 3:13

Which, in turn, made my partner go. ‘Oh okay, if the person that has known them for so many years is scared, dear god, what am I in for?’

Nicole: 3:15

Exactly No, but it's gonna be so much fun. They, they love us, despite.

Arabella: 3:18

It is, they do.

Nicole: 3:20

And so, on that note, shall we get on with it, because I'm sure everyone wants to know what the heck is happening this week.

Arabella: 3:22

Exactly! So, let's get back to the story as we are starting from my perspective this week. Nicole is going to do the recap. Take it away.

Nicole: 3:24

I shall Previously, before the mid-season break on Unruly Confessions, we started the episode in the pool. I spent a silly amount of time worrying about my wobbly bits, but they are actually quite good.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 3:28

They are, they’re gorgeous.

Nicole: 3:30

As per usual

Arabella: 3:32

We like them.

Nicole: 3:34

Thank you. As per usual, I piss off Carter by breathing in his direction(Arabella chuckles) and show too much of my obsession with Jason. I end up in the sauna with Mike for some steamy fun.

Arabella: 3:40

Very steamy

Nicole: 3:42

Once the rest of the band had left the pool, I almost drowned myself having sex with Mike as I forgot I was not a mermaid.(Both laugh) Mike decided correctly and promptly not to do that sort of thing with me again.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 3:47

I, I think that was wise.

Nicole: 3:49

He was like ’she's my responsibility and she is an idiot’.(Nicole laughs followed by Arabella)

Arabella: 3:52

We have to be careful with this one.

Nicole: 3:54

Not really. I'm not really an idiot. Meanwhile, Bella has been invited for a nightcap with Zander but got unintentionally cock-blocked by Jay, once again, and this is becoming a pattern Bella is left…

Arabella: 3:57

It really fucking is(Nicole chuckles)

Nicole: 4:00

…dissatisfied with the end of the night.

Arabella: 4:02

Very dissatisfied. I mean come on. Come on!

Nicole: 4:04

Soon, Bella, soon, be patient.(Nicole laughs and Arabella growls) The next morning, I found myself entangled like an octopus around Mike while saying other men's names in my sleep.(Nicole laughs followed by Arabella) Isn't that every man's dream? Gold star for me.

Arabella: 4:10

Ohhh, they love it.

Nicole: 4:12

We have morning sex. I'm surprised he did, after all that. We have morning sex and I pick up the phone to Bella during said act.

Arabella: 4:14

Oh my God, she's just wow, just…

Nicole: 4:16

Do make sure to call me for sex tips, guys.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 4:19

You know she's hot on it,

Nicole: 4:21

So on it.

Arabella: 4:23

That's what all guys want you to do,

Nicole: 4:25

Oh yeah. I make up for it in other ways, I promise.(Both burst out laughing)

Arabella: 4:29

With more shenanigans.

Nicole: 4:31

Yep. Noooo, with proper skill. And know-how.

Arabella: 4:35

Oh, yes you do, yes.(Arabella continues to laugh)

Nicole: 4:38

And the last episode ends when Carter and my feud reach a climax over breakfast.

Arabella: 4:40

Ooooo It was boiling and, as we know, this is where we left you on this little bit of a cliffhanger of how…how is Mike going to deal with Nicole?

Nicole: 4:43

This time. Yeah.

Arabella: 4:46

And now for Episode 12…….Stickaaaay (Sticky)

Nicole: 4:48

Stickaaaay(Nicole bursts out laughing)

Arabella: 4:51

It reminds me of….Sookie

Nicole: 4:53

Same. I was thinking that exact thing when you said it. For all those True Blood fans out there. We've got ya, we’ve got ya, we're cultured.

Arabella: 4:55

Yeah, we're here. We’re here. Oh yeah.

Nicole: 4:57

Stickaaaay… anyway.

Arabella: 4:59

Stickaaaay…(Both still quietly laughing)

Nicole: 5:02

So, without further ado and shenanigans from the two of us, from Bella’s perspective, we start Episode 12.(Podcast theme music plays – Rat Head by Big Mouse Tree House)

Arabella: 5:05

I watched Nicole march off angrily.“I hate to place myself in the line of fire here”, I attempted, “but was that really necessary?”“I’ve told her countless times”, Mike explained, “no getting in the way of band matters—upsetting The Band is very high on the list- ““I understand”“Good morning, everyone”. Melissa had arrived and stood at the head of the table. “We need to leave in half an hour if we want to be on time for the signing”. The Band got up and I started following them into the lobby, wondering if Nicole and I were tagging along to the signing or if we were forced to stay at the hotel. In which case, what the hell are we going to do with ourselves?(Nicole starts to laugh)

Nicole: 5:13

I'm sure we'll think of something, but I'm not sure that's what they want.(Both laugh)

Arabella: 5:16

No, I'm not sure that would be a wise idea.

Nicole: 5:18

Exactly

Arabella: 5:20

“Bella!” Mike called when I was about to climb the stairs from the lobby. “Do you have a minute?”“Of course,”, I smiled. “What’s up?”“Do you think you could chat to Nicole about toning down well, everything?”(Nicole laughs followed by Arabella) I laughed. “I could—but I’m not sure I can change her entire personality”.“I don’t need you to do that”, Mike said, “but I can’t have her fighting with Carter all the time and the message doesn’t seem to be getting through to her”. I nodded. “Yeah—she struggles with her reactions- ““Clearly”.(Nicole snorts)“I’ll see what I can do”, I promised. “But you know I will always choose Nicky if I have to choose sides. And you can’t pretend Carter isn’t being provoking as hell”.“You don’t need to choose sides”, Mike assured me. “We’re all on the same side. I’ll handle Carter, you handle Nicole”.“What are Nicky and I doing while you’re at the signing?” I asked inquisitively.“I’m sorry if it’s not really what you wanted to do but—I was hoping I could ask you guys to go shopping”.“Shopping?” I smiled baffled. “Why?”

Nicole: 5:35

Yeah why?(Nicole scoffs followed by Arabella)

Arabella: 5:38

I know.

Nicole: 5:40

Why?(Arabella laughs a little and Nicole carries on laughing)

Arabella: 5:43

Ohhhh Nicole. Why? Why God? Why? It's going to be fun. Don't be silly.“There are a few events that you’ll need some specific clothes for”, he clarified. “You may have some of the items…I’m not sure if Nicole does”.“Do you have a list of what you need us to get?”“Melissa made one”.

Nicole: 5:48

Melissa does everything around here.

Arabella: 5:50

Yes, she does. She is a dream.

Nicole: 5:52

I'm starting, I'm starting to have doubts if Mike wrote his own list of fetishes or he made Melissa do it.(Both burst out laughing) No, I'm joking. I'm joking, of course Melissa didn't do that.

Arabella: 5:56

Yes, no, I think Melissa would kindly decline to do that.

Nicole: 5:58

I also I don't know if she knows that many details. Probably.

Arabella: 6:00

No

Nicole: 6:02

I don't know

Arabella: 6:04

Probably not. No, it's not really what she needs to be doing.

Nicole: 6:07

(Nicole starts to laugh followed by Arabella) No, definitely not no, how far does the role of a PA go?

Arabella: 6:10

Never too far.

Nicole: 6:12

Alright, okay,

Arabella: 6:14

Wink wink, nudge nudge,

Nicole: 6:16

Alright

Arabella: 6:18

Tale as old as time corporates.(Both are chuckling)

Nicole: 6:21

Oh, yeah, that's oh, no, no, guys, that's not what we're talking about here. No, no, no. This is very not that. No abuse of the PA is happening.

Arabella: 6:23

I think we're all very clear. This is not that.

Nicole: 6:25

This is not that. I'm the only one who's been consenting to this.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 6:28

Well, and me,

Nicole: 6:30

Yes, but not from mike. Oh yeah, actually.

Arabella: 6:33

I'm literally doing something for him now.

Nicole: 6:35

(Nicole giggles) Fair enough

Arabella: 6:38

Right this very fucking second, I am being asked to manage you.

Nicole: 6:40

Fair.(Arabella giggles) At least it's not sex related today.

Arabella: 6:44

Today

Nicole: 6:46

Okay, go on

Arabella: 6:48

Has been, but not today.(Both are still laughing their way through that on and off) Okay.“Melissa made one”. He handed me a list and I scanned my eyes briefly down it. “Two of everything?” He nodded.“And we can choose the styles, fabrics and colours ourselves?”“Knock yourself out”, he smiled, “but don’t go too overboard”.“Understood”, I told him.

Nicole: 6:58

(Nicole splutters a slight laugh) Do you understand? Hang on, just understood. Except if you said that to me, I wouldn't understand shit. What does that mean? Knock yourself out, but don't go too overboard. Okay, that's not precise at all.

Arabella: 7:02

It's all right, he's going to get precise later, it’s fine.

Nicole: 7:04

Okay, i's just funny because you're like understood, okay, I'm glad someone has.(Both still chuckling a little) Okay,

Arabella: 7:08

“Just so you know, Nicky hates shopping. So, get ready for the fireworks”.

Nicole: 7:10

I really do.

Arabella: 7:12

You really, really do.

Nicole: 7:14

I really don't like it.

Arabella: 7:16

Oh, the stink she throws up when she thinks there's shopping to be done.

Nicole: 7:18

So upset.(Arabella makes a woohh sound) The only thing I will shop for, there are things I like, that's music, musical instruments and something kink related. All other shopping is ew!

Arabella: 7:22

Is dead to you.

Nicole: 7:24

Oh, and concert tickets. Duh, I need a PA.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 7:27

Yes, and that would be me.

Nicole: 7:29

That's true. Yeah,(Both laugh)

Arabella: 7:32

“Understood”, I told him. “Just so you know, Nicky hates shopping. So, get ready for the fireworks”. He chuckled. “That’s why I’m letting you handle the fireworks-”“Ah I see. Very sneaky”. Mike handed me a debit card. “Don’t lose that-”“Oh-now it feels like Pretty Woman”, I giggled. “Are you going to buy us a Condo too?”(Nicole laughs followed by Arabella) He rolled his eyes. “Just take the fucking card”.“Mike!” I gasped. “Are you mad? This is a debit card”. Do Americans have debit cards?

Nicole: 7:42

Of course they do. What, what do you?(Nicole laughs at Arabella) What, what?

Arabella: 7:46

I don't know.

Nicole: 7:48

They don't all use American Express

Arabella: 7:50

They don’t do chip and pin, I know that much

Nicole: 7:52

What?

Arabella: 7:54

I know they don't do chip and pin.

Nicole: 7:56

They don't?

Arabella: 7:58

No, no, you still have to, they take away your card and you have to sign for it. Yeah, seriously

Nicole: 8:01

But, but they're in Europe right now, so he's probably used to a few things.

Arabella: 8:03

Yeah

Nicole: 8:05

But that's a good question. Hey, Americans out there who follow our podcast, could you please let us know in the comments or, you know, for those who don't know, you can actually send us fan mail, for if you, if you go below the episodes

Arabella: 8:08

From our website

Nicole: 8:10

And you go, you know um, send us a message, we get them. Can you please tell us?

Arabella: 8:12

We’d love them

Nicole: 8:14

Do you guys use debit cards in America, in the States? Please tell us, we don't know.

Arabella: 8:16

Is it the same sort of thing or is there a different thing that you use?

Nicole: 8:18

Yeah

Arabella: 8:20

We know credit cards are a big thing out there.

Nicole: 8:22

Yes But…as we are here too. But can you buy someon, something by putting a pin in? Or is it like credit card or cash?

Arabella: 8:27

Well, no chip and pin. I'm sure they probably have debit cards that they can just swipe and sign for.

Nicole: 8:29

Ahhhhh. Well, are you sure? I'm not sure.

Arabella: 8:32

Well, I know that's what I had to do with my debit card in America.

Nicole: 8:34

Ah, cool. Right, okay.

Arabella: 8:37

It was a whole weird thing, especially when they take away your card at restaurants. I'm like, oh, I'm not sure about that. No thank you.

Nicole: 8:39

Interesting

Arabella: 8:41

Give me back my card. I don't trust you.

Nicole: 8:43

(Nicole barks a laugh) Wow, okay, so yeah. So please, for those who actually live in the States or know the answer to this question, please do let us know. We would love to know.

Arabella: 8:46

Yes He rolled his eyes. “Just take the fucking card”.“Mike!” I gasped. “Are you mad? This is a debit card”.“Really?” he asked sarcastically. “Here’s the pin”.“I can just leave the country with it, you know”.“I’ll have you arrested if you dare”.“Fair enough”.“If they don’t let you use it”, he said. “Have them phone me”.“I don’t have your number”.

He punched it into my phone and added: 8:55

“Please don’t go giving that out to people”.

Nicole: 8:57

Why do I have the feeling when he says don't give it out to people, he means me?

Arabella: 8:59

People means you.(Arabella chuckles a little)

Nicole: 9:02

Because I don't have his number.

Arabella: 9:04

You do not.

Nicole: 9:06

I don't have anyone's number. It's very fucking annoying.

Arabella: 9:08

Yeah

Nicole: 9:10

He doesn't trust me very much, does he?(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 9:13

No. But to be fair, you do have form.

I do have form?Arabella: 9:16

Of not always being able to trust where you're going to be. Where your phone is

Nicole: 9:18

Which is why a number would be so useful though.

Arabella: 9:20

But you don't know where your phone is most of the time. So, not really.

Nicole: 9:22

Oh yeah, that's true, it would be so not useful for that.

Arabella: 9:24

(Nicole begins to laugh followed by Arabella who barks a yes out) Yes

Nicole: 9:27

But it would be very useful for other people who want to get his number though.(Both continue to laugh)

Arabella: 9:30

Oh yeah

Nicole: 9:32

So maybe that's what he's doing here. Okay, moving on.

Arabella: 9:34

Yes. Moving on.“How much are we allowed to use?”“Don’t spend a fortune”, he said. “No more than €10 000. The bank will call me anyway for such a big amount”.

Nicole: 9:38

Fuck my life

Arabella: 9:40

“You’re bonkers”, I said, still surprised. See, fuck my life, you're bonkers.

Nicole: 9:43

Indeed

Arabella: 9:45

Could I be more British if I try?(Nicole cackles at me)

Nicole: 9:48

No

Arabella: 9:50

You're bonkers!

Nicole: 9:52

You're bonkers! To be honest, I he probably understands that because he's been around a lot.

Arabella: 9:54

Yeah, yeah“Probably”, he smirked. “Do you have a licence?”“Yes, but only an automatic”, I responded, “Nicky has both”.“God help us”,(Nicole lets a gasp of a laugh out) Mike said but handed me a pair of keys.(Arabella joins in the laughter)

Nicole: 10:02

Wow! Again, the confidence this man has in me is

Arabella: 10:04

Wow! So much confidence.

Nicole: 10:06

Yeah

Arabella: 10:08

“Billy is lending you, his rental. Tell Nicole, if she gets so much as a scratch on it, her ass is mine”.

Nicole: 10:10

Uh

Arabella: 10:12

Isn't it already though?(Arabella laughs)

Nicole: 10:15

Yeah that, and also careful, careful now, Mike.

Arabella: 10:17

Yes,

Nicole: 10:19

That's a threat I might enjoy

Arabella: 10:21

“Careful”, Which is hilarious, considering my next line.

Nicole: 10:24

Oh.

Arabella: 10:26

“Careful”, I jested, “she may scratch it on purpose”.

Nicole: 10:28

Well, fuck yeah!

Arabella: 10:30

Right there(Nicole laughs) At least we know this is true to your personality

Nicole: 10:34

Absolutely

Arabella: 10:36

He chuckled. “Make sure she doesn’t”.“Thank you, Mike”, I said sincerely. “That’s a lot of trust to put in people”.

Nicole: 10:39

To be clear a lot of trust to put in you.

Arabella: 10:41

To put in me

Nicole: 10:43

Not me

Arabella: 10:45

Me

Nicole: 10:47

Note he's not giving everything to me going. This is what you’re doing cause errmmm

Arabella: 10:49

And the second that I say it's you going to have to drive it's God, help us!

Nicole: 10:51

(At the same time) God, help us!(Nicole laughs) It's so intense he needs to invoke the help of God.

Arabella: 10:55

Exactly. Plus, it would be so much worse if it was me driving because they drive on the other side of the road.

Nicole: 10:57

Yes, but I think

Arabella: 10:59

I would be fucked. I'm dyslexic as hell.

Nicole: 11:01

Yeah, but I think

Arabella: 11:03

I still have to pretend I'm writing to figure out what's my left and my right.

Nicole: 11:05

That's true. The thing is, though, I think, what we're all missing the obvious here, is it's part of his whole thing with me.

Arabella: 11:07

Yeah

Nicole: 11:09

You know, he's playing the line a lot. The moment you tell me all of this, I'm going to be like I'm going to kill him. I'm going to kill him.

Arabella: 11:11

Yeah.(Both laughing) Seething

Nicole: 11:15

And he loves that because then he knows later on it's going to be very fun.

Arabella: 11:17

“That’s a lot of trust to put in people”.“Meet us at the stadium at four. Le Stad de Lyon”, Mike said. “The car’s got a GPS”.“No problem”, I said. “But I’ll call you otherwise they won’t let Nicky backstage”.“Deal”, he winked. “See you later”.

Nicole: 11:22

Yeah, because he, he revoked my right to a backstage pass.

Arabella: 11:24

Yes, you're not allowed.

Nicole: 11:26

I’m not allowed many things it seems.

Arabella: 11:28

No You are not to be trusted.

Nicole: 11:31

(Nicole lets out a big sigh) I'm

Arabella: 11:34

Never to be trusted(Arabella chuckles a little)

Nicole: 11:37

Yeah. I'm not sure if it's completely a lack of trust. I think it's, it's just you know, who you're dealing with at a certain point.

Arabella: 11:40

Yes, but also slight punishment too.(Arabella chuckles a little)

Nicole: 11:43

Slight, quite big actually. I'm like confined to the premises.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 11:46

Yes. No passes for you!

Nicole: 11:48

That and I think he's also making sure I know who I'm depending on, because whenever I need to be anywhere,

Arabella: 11:50

Yes

Nicole: 11:52

I be like, please help me. And he loves that. He’s lit, I’m so, I'm in bondage and not in a fun way.(Nicole wheezes a laugh)

Arabella: 11:55

You are, you are limited to the chaos that you cause.

Nicole: 11:57

He, he's tying me up, he's tying me up in every way at the moment.(Nicole laughs cheekily) Right.

Arabella: 12:01

To be fair, it's not a bad thought to do that.

Nicole: 12:03

No. That is true.

Arabella: 12:05

It does limit the messes.

Nicole: 12:07

It does

Arabella: 12:09

Somewhat

Nicole: 12:11

It does. Right.

Arabella: 12:13

I mean he's letting us go out there into the world by ourselves

Nicole: 12:15

That's true. I was thinking I, I don't know, this is coming across for everyone listening, but, um, I'm sure it does. I'm, I'm a good writer.(Nicole chuckles nervously) But Mike, Mike obviously really does trust us, even though he's saying, oh, don't let her do this, don't let her do that, um, because that's part of the fun.

Arabella: 12:20

Yeah

Nicole: 12:22

He wouldn't actually give us Billy's rental if he thought we were really going to be irresponsible.

Arabella: 12:24

Exactly

Nicole: 12:26

That would be ins

Arabella: 12:28

And his debit card

Nicole: 12:30

And his debit card, right. So, like he's being, he's actually trusts us more than most people, because also a

Arabella: 12:33

Yeah

Nicole: 12:35

very well respecting Dom knows that you need to put a lot of trust in your brat and in yourself, and same for me, I have to trust him with my life and vice versa, right?

Arabella: 12:37

Yes

Nicole: 12:39

Yeah, so,

Arabella: 12:41

Exactly.

Nicole: 12:43

So, this is, yeah, be careful who you guys. If you guys are in the kink scene or new to the kink scene, um, or dabbling in it, be very wary. Take your time when you choose who to,

Arabella: 12:45

Get to know people

Nicole: 12:47

Yeah, who you want to play with and who you want to enter a relationship with. It's very important, especially with this kind of stuff.

Arabella: 12:49

Yes, exactly.

Nicole: 12:51

And without going into too much detail because I know I'm annoying when it comes to this but also be careful when you read romance books. Like read them, read the shit out of them. Read all the freaking books you want um but take the kink stuff with a grain of salt unless you know that author is a kink positive part of the community person who knows a thing.

Arabella: 12:53

Yeah, and knows how to write it safely.

Nicole: 12:55

Exactly

Arabella: 12:57

As a very popular book has sort of really annoyed the ki, the kink community.

Nicole: 12:59

But not only that book. There are, that one's probably the most famous, but there are multiple books that, um,

Arabella: 13:02

Yes,

Nicole: 13:04

Missed the mark a little bit, and then,

Arabella: 13:06

Yeah

Nicole: 13:08

And those are dangerous. The close it is

Arabella: 13:11

You want it in a story, but not in real life.

Nicole: 13:13

Exactly, which is why here there are moments, there will be moments in the podcast that are done for um literature purposes, in which case we will be very clear what the stance on that is in the kink community. So, you know.

Arabella: 13:15

Exactly, Yeah. Right. We're trying to be responsible, yet also highly entertaining.

Nicole: 13:20

Exactly this is how we get the news out there. Okay.

Arabella: 13:23

Oh yeah. I found Nicole in our room pacing up and down in front of the bed.“Hey. Everything all right in here?”

Nicole: 13:27

“No! You saw me at breakfast—I’m going to get thrown off the tour at any moment now-”

Arabella: 13:29

“I think we can all agree that breakfast could’ve gone better”, I smiled, “but no one’s getting kicked off the tour”.

Nicole: 13:31

“How do you know?”

Arabella: 13:33

“I just spoke to Mike”.

Nicole: 13:35

“Is he pissed?”

Arabella: 13:37

She asked, biting her lip.“Yes”, “but not super pissed”. She frowned.

Nicole: 13:41

“That’s something at least”.

Arabella: 13:43

“What were you thinking?”

Nicole: 13:45

“I wasn’t really. But I promise I’m not trying to fuck this up—you heard Carter, right? It’s not entirely my fault”.

Arabella: 13:47

“We all know that, but you’re not in The Band-”

Nicole: 13:49

“So, I just need to let him say what he wants?”

Arabella: 13:51

“No”, I rolled my eyes, “but you know what I’m saying. This is The Band’s tour first and foremost. Nicky and Bella’s antics second. I don’t need to spell it out for you like Mike asked me to, right?”

Nicole: 13:53

“Mike asked you to?”

Arabella: 13:55

“I think he’s running out of ways to say it, Nicky. And you must realise you’re walking on thin ice now- “

Nicole: 13:57

“I thought you said he wasn’t super pissed- “

Arabella: 13:59

“He’s not throwing you off the tour pissed—yet, but please—for both our sakes, can we drop the feud with Carter?”

Nicole: 14:01

“Of course. I don’t even know how it got this bad—did you hear? He called me the slut who’s fucking herself into the music business- “

Arabella: 14:03

“I’m sure he was just saying something- “

Nicole: 14:05

“But he’s not wrong, is he”

Arabella: 14:07

“Huh? What’re you talking about?”

Nicole: 14:09

“Well, it’s not as crude as Carter put it, but Mike promised to help me meet some people if I come on the tour- “

Arabella: 14:11

“Yeah—but he didn’t promise to put you in the business and make you famous in exchange for sex, did he?”

Nicole: 14:13

“Not in those words- “

Arabella: 14:15

“Tell me—why are you here, Nicky? For the boost to your career?”

Nicole: 14:17

“I mean that’s awesome but I’m here ‘cause it’s The fucking Band”.(Both laugh and Nicole make a weird snuffle) Hello.

Arabella: 14:21

“So never mind what Carter says” What did you say?

Nicole: 14:24

I said hello, it's the fucking band!

Arabella: 14:26

Hello

Nicole: 14:28

Hello

Arabella: 14:30

Duh!

Nicole: 14:32

Yeah.

Arabella: 14:34

“So never mind what Carter says. He’s just a little pent up”.(Nicole laughs weirdly)

Nicole: 14:37

You wouldn't say that to his face, though, would you?(Nicole laughs some more)

Arabella: 14:40

Oh no, no, I would not.

Nicole: 14:42

“At least the fight with Carter took my attention away from Jay for once. Did you see how good he looked this morning?”

Arabella: 14:44

“Can’t say I did. And I thought you said your attention was not on him?”

Nicole: 14:46

“Not as much as usual”(Nicole sighs)“Holy shit”.

Arabella: 14:50

“What?”

“You know when Mike said something about talking in your sleep and I begged him not to say anything-“Arabella: 14:53

“That was weird”

“Yeah, ‘cause I said Jay’s name in my sleep-“Arabella: 14:56

“Fuck, you did not!”

Nicole: 14:58

“I was sleeping-“

“I know, it’s just so-“Nicole: 15:01

“I know. But he didn’t seem angry about it. More amused”.

Arabella: 15:03

“That’s lucky then. Nicky, be careful with the whole Jay thing too. Perhaps it’s time to focus more on Mike for a while—just until things calm down”.

Nicole: 15:05

“You’re right. We can start now by not being late for the signing”.

Arabella: 15:07

“We’re not going to the signing”

Nicole: 15:09

“We’re not?”

Arabella: 15:11

“No, we’re going shopping”.

Nicole: 15:13

“Why the fuck would I do that?”

Arabella: 15:15

(Arabella laughs weirdly)“Mike’s orders”

Nicole: 15:18

“I’m going to kill him. I know I fucked up at breakfast, but this is unnecessary torture”.(Arabella giggles) I should have put that down as a hard limit. I should have been like, no shopping. None!(Nicole cackles)

Arabella: 15:24

Exactly! You missed a trick there.

Nicole: 15:26

Although it doesn't, because it's not, it's not innately sexual, it's not a hard limit.(Nicole laughs again)

Arabella: 15:29

No, it's not. It's just a preferred.

Nicole: 15:32

It's just preferred.

Arabella: 15:34

“I told Mike you would feel that way, so he sent me”.

“No, moose, we’re both going to enjoy it. I’ve got Mike’s debit card-“Nicole: 15:38

“You’re shitting me! He pretty women’d you?”

Arabella: 15:40

(Arabella laughs followed by Nicole)“Us—it’s for both of us”.

Nicole: 15:43

“Strange, what’s his angle?”

“Don’t think there is one, he wants us to get some outfits for some events and parties on the tour-“Nicole: 15:46

“I suppose that’s logical”.

Arabella: 15:48

“Move your butt”, I said and slapped her bum. “We don’t have all day”.(Nicole laughs followed by Arabella who makes it a little gremlin laugh) Little spanky spank.

Nicole: 15:52

Spanky spank. Well, at this point,

Arabella: 15:55

This is how you get her going. Motivate her with spanks

Nicole: 15:57

True, this is how, that’s more encouraging than saying go shopping Nicole

Arabella: 15:59

Yes, give her a little spanky spank and she'll be a happy girl.

Nicole: 16:01

Exactly(Both laugh)(Theme music plays signalling a break)

Arabella: 16:05

We waved at the receptionist as we passed and walked through the hotel’s front door. Billy’s black Mercedes stood parked on the gravel in front of the hotel with other expensive-looking cars.

Nicole: 16:08

“Is Billy driving us?”

Arabella: 16:10

“No”, I grinned, dangling the keys in front of her.

Nicole: 16:12

“I’m driving?”

Arabella: 16:14

“Yes, but Mike made it clear to me that our goose is cooked if you even so much as scratch it- “

Nicole: 16:16

“No scratches—got it”.

Arabella: 16:18

She said as she quickly took the keys. I slid into the beige leather passenger seat as Nicole got behind the wheel.

Nicole: 16:21

I love that. No scratches, but he didn't say anything about bending it around a pole.(Nicole does a dramatic Ahahaaa) No, I'm joking.

Arabella: 16:25

Methinks that that gets covered by the no scratches.(Nicole laughs)

Nicole: 16:28

No, I'm joking, Plus I wouldn't, I wouldn't, I wouldn't test him on that. Mmhmm

Arabella: 16:30

No. No, no

Nicole: 16:33

He'd send me home and he'd make me pay for it. So,

Arabella: 16:35

Yes, yes. To be fair you, yeah, you would deserve to pay for it.

Nicole: 16:37

Nice, thank you.

Arabella: 16:39

Yes I set the GPS up to take us to all the designer boutiques and a few more alternative brands. While it acquired satellites,(Both burst out laughing)

Nicole: 16:44

You can tell, you can tell this was first written in 2009 because,

Arabella: 16:46

Because,

Nicole: 16:48

Because

Arabella: 16:50

They don't do that anymore.

Nicole: 16:52

Acquired satellites. They don't do that anymore.

Arabella: 16:54

Acquired satellites

Nicole: 16:56

But do you remember when it used to? It'd be like, acquiring satellites, and you were like(Nicole whistles a little ditty)

Arabella: 16:59

And it would take fucking ages sometimes.

Nicole: 17:01

Yeah

Arabella: 17:03

And you'd just be sitting there going, I need ta, I need to go. We need to leave.

Nicole: 17:05

Should’ve, should have left ten minutes early to acquire satellites. Anyway.(Still laughing)

Arabella: 17:08

While it acquired satellites, Nicole started the car.

Nicole: 17:10

“I can’t believe he trusts us with Billy’s car”. While it acquired satellites, I shrugged. “I guess Billy was the main decision maker”. The gravel crackled as Nicole drove the car out of the hotel parking lot and started heading into the city. Lyon was a sight to behold. It looked a lot like Paris, but with more greenery.“Arriving at destination”, the woman’s voice on the GPS announced.“Here we are”, I said as Nicole parked in the road next to the boutique.“I thought we’d start with easy things first”, I told her with a smile.“What’s that?”

Arabella: 17:21

“Some new everyday clothes”.

Nicole: 17:23

“That’s easy?”

Arabella: 17:25

(Arabella laughs)“Come on.” I love how I've, I've got, I've got Carter's level grump right now.(Grumpily) What's that? Yes(Arabella makes a teenager grumpy noise and Nicole laughs)

Nicole: 17:34

Why?

Arabella: 17:36

I don't want to be here. You are now the, the sullen teenager.

Nicole: 17:39

I know I'm so sorry.“Let me see how I can explain this to you”

Arabella: 17:42

Nicole said inside the changing room twenty minutes later while trying on a purple mini dress with green skulls.

“I know it’s BDSM and everything but I would like him to be a bit more intimate sometimes-“Arabella: 17:45

“He’s married”, I reminded her. “How intimate could he be?”

Nicole: 17:47

That and also, I'm just realising. Last time he, one time he wasn't even trying to be intimate. He just looked in my eyes and I shat the bed.

Arabella: 17:49

Exactly

Nicole: 17:51

So…

Arabella: 17:53

Exactly. You couldn't handle it,

Nicole: 17:55

Just to be clear, because we are talking kinky. I didn't literally shit the bed.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 17:58

No, no, she didn’t

Nicole: 18:00

I just panicked.

Arabella: 18:02

Figuratively.

Nicole: 18:04

Figuratively, we shat the bed. So, I don't know why I'm suddenly like, could he be more intimate? But okay, fine, let's see where I was going with this.“Don’t you think I know that? That doesn’t stop him being friendly with other people-like whenever he’s with fans—well, fans that are not me, he’s like a muscular Labrador-“(Nicole laughs followed by Arabella) So, I don't want him to be more intimate, I want him to be friendlier.

Arabella: 18:09

Nicer to you

Nicole: 18:11

I need him to be gentler. But that's not gonna happen because that's not what's happening, and I don't really. No, I don't want him to be.

Arabella: 18:14

And that's not what you want.

Nicole: 18:16

No, what the fuck am I talking about?(Nicole laughs hard)

Arabella: 18:19

You're doing one of your weirds.

Nicole: 18:21

I'm doing a weird, for sure.

Arabella: 18:23

You're doing one of your weirds and it does happen.

Nicole: 18:25

It does

Arabella: 18:27

And then you're, and then you're reminded why you don't like it. And then you're like, well, fuck that shit!

Nicole: 18:29

Yeah, the moment he's gentle,

Arabella: 18:31

Why the hell did I think I wanted that?

Nicole: 18:33

That's true, because the moment he's gonna be gentle I'm gonna be like what are you doing, man? We don't do that here.(Nicole keeps laughing)

Arabella: 18:36

Ughhh. No. Go away

Nicole: 18:38

No. No, no, no, just no, we're kidding, we’re kidding. There's obviously a lot of space for your Dom, even with a brat, especially with a brat

Arabella: 18:40

Yes

Nicole: 18:42

To be cuddly and intimate and stuff.

Arabella: 18:44

Exactly,

Nicole: 18:46

Mike and I aren't there yet, like he doesn't know me.

Arabella: 18:48

No, I laughed. “Sure”.

Nicole: 18:51

“I mean look at how he is with you! He’s really gentle with you- “

“Yeah—but he’s constantly annoyed with me-“Arabella: 18:55

“I’ve seen him being friendly to you”, I pointed out. “But you didn’t exactly help yourself this morning”.

Nicole: 18:57

Oh, I see what's going on. This is this is there's no, this is just me having a little, weird little tantrum

Arabella: 19:00

Yes

Nicole: 19:02

About what happened this morning. That's it. And because,

Arabella: 19:04

Which is why I said you're doing a weird, you do this.

Nicole: 19:06

Exactly, and because Mike is currently punishing me. I don't know if you guys have noticed that. He's not spoken to me yet.

Arabella: 19:08

No

Nicole: 19:10

And this is aggravating to me as a person, but also to most brats. The easiest way, all Doms close your ears, this is not for you. The easiest way to, to punish your brat is to ignore them. It's aggro, it's incredibly difficult, and that's what he's doing. He's like

Arabella: 19:12

Yes

Nicole: 19:14

He's like okay, well, no attention for you. So now I'm spinning a little bit. I've just realized that's what's happening.

Arabella: 19:16

Yes

Nicole: 19:18

I'm spinning a little bit.

Arabella: 19:20

Yeah

Nicole: 19:22

So, nothing, take nothing I say seriously until Mike and I speak again.

Arabella: 19:24

(Both laugh) Yes

Nicole: 19:27

Okay, so“I know”

Arabella: 19:30

She sighed

Nicole: 19:32

“I like this one—”

Arabella: 19:34

She nodded at the dress.“Great”, I smiled, “me too. Let’s try the next few”.

Nicole: 19:37

“But won’t it look odd if we’re wearing such similar clothes?”

“Hasn’t stopped us before-“Nicole: 19:40

“Fair enough”.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 19:43

The next two dresses were two plain mini dresses, red for me, black for Nicole.

“It looks great on you, but with my legs—I cannot wear this in public-“Arabella: 19:46

“What the hell are you talking about?”, I laughed. “You should wear these more often with your legs”.(Nicole chuckles) The buying of everyday clothes in the alternative shops were not displeasing Nicole but I knew the real feat would be underwear and evening wear. We got a few more alternative evening dresses, but we did need something classier on occasion. I convinced Nicole to buy a blue sequined dress with spaghetti straps that looked beautiful on her and a long cream satin dress with a long slit on the left side. She insisted that it looked ridiculous, but I was having none of it. I bought a long sleeved black and white lace dress and a black off the shoulder sequined dress. We also bought alternative evening dresses with corsets and lace-ups. There were pairs of doc martins bought to make up for the many, many heels. We also bought new swimsuits. Finally, the hardest moment arrived, lingerie.

Nicole: 19:52

“No one will have my size”,

Arabella: 19:54

Nicole insisted for the tenth time.

Nicole: 19:56

Wow

Arabella: 19:58

“We will find something”(Both laugh) I'm done with your bullshit.

Nicole: 20:02

Yeah

Arabella: 20:04

I’m like…

Nicole: 20:06

But to be fair, it's incredibly hard to find any underwear for my breasts.

Arabella: 20:08

It really is.

Nicole: 20:10

Yeah

Arabella: 20:12

When you've got the boo, extra booby juice

Nicole: 20:14

Extra booby juice.

Arabella: 20:16

More expensive.

Nicole: 20:18

Yeah, more expensive.

Arabella: 20:20

And tiny back.

Nicole: 20:22

And tiny back. That's it. They just they cannot with that. They can't assume that your back could be small, and your cup size could be big. No.

Arabella: 20:25

Yes

Nicole: 20:27

So yeah,

Arabella: 20:29

And if they do, it tends to be the really ugly granny bras.

Nicole: 20:31

Exactly, exactly.

Arabella: 20:33

So, trying to find some really nice ones that still look good.

Nicole: 20:35

Exactly!

Arabella: 20:37

And fit is like

Nicole: 20:39

It has been the feat of my life. So, anyone, if you find underwear for me, please let me know where you are.

Arabella: 20:41

Yes

Nicole: 20:43

I will buy it, 30hh please. Please tell me where you can find.

Arabella: 20:45

Yes,

Nicole: 20:47

“No one will have my size”

Arabella: 20:49

Nicole insisted for the tenth time.“We will find something that does”, I maintained. “Use your French to google big sizes and we’ll go there-“Ten minutes later, we drove to a little shop on the corner which looked promising. Nicole told me that I was being too optimistic. But they did have her size and surprisingly in lovely items.

Nicole: 20:52

Because this is fiction.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 20:55

Exactly.

Nicole: 20:57

Woohoo! We can do what we want.

Arabella: 20:59

Yes!(Nicole chuckles a bit more) I picked out everything I thought would look good on us and we went to try them on. Nicole did so reluctantly.

Nicole: 21:03

“You know what’s really frustrating”

Arabella: 21:05

Nicole continued on the subject of Mike’s rules.

Nicole: 21:07

“The Band rule is the worst. Like I understand why it exists, but I want to have sex with everybody-“(Both laugh)

Arabella: 21:09

“I know,

Nicole: 21:11

Wow

Arabella: 21:13

I would feel like that too”.

Nicole: 21:15

“But you can! You’re not obligated to do anything Mike says”.

Arabella: 21:17

“I am a little”, I told her, “Plus…the one I really want is Zander and if I’m with him I can’t have anyone else.-“

Nicole: 21:19

“And how is it?”

Arabella: 21:21

“What?”

Nicole: 21:23

“The sex?”

“Oh, we haven’t had sex-“Nicole: 21:26

“What! How is that possible?”

“Every time we think about it something else gets in the way-“Nicole: 21:29

“Like what?”

“Well, the first night was the bus. The second day we were in the field, and you know, had no time, and then recently it’s been Jay cock-blocking-“Nicole: 21:32

“Why would Jay cock-block you?”

Arabella: 21:34

“Not on purpose-“(Nicole wheezes a laugh followed by Arabella)

Nicole: 21:36

Obviously

Arabella: 21:38

I don't think he would intentionally do that.

Nicole: 21:40

Never. He would not intentionally cock block anyone.

Arabella: 21:42

No, he'd be like I'm getting the fuck out of here.

Nicole: 21:44

Yeah

“Absolutely not! As much as I’d love that, you and Jay in a room alone would lead to certain disaster-“Nicole: 21:47

“Jay doesn’t want me-“

Arabella: 21:49

She said a little sadly

“His behaviour has little sister written all over it-“Arabella: 21:52

(Arabella laughs)“Eww-no. I’ve seen the way he looks at you-“(Nicole laughs)

Nicole: 21:55

“He does not”.

Arabella: 21:57

“I promise you, he does”.

“Nicky, trust me. I know it’s hard but do not put yourself in a situation with Jay, Carter or Noah that you’ll regret-“Nicole: 22:01

(Nicole scoffs a laugh) I love how you have to mention every guy in my vicinity.

Arabella: 22:04

I'm like let's tick them off by name, so she makes it very clear,

Nicole: 22:06

No, but at least

Arabella: 22:08

it's very clear who I'm talking about. It's not just Jay I'm talking about. I'm talking about all of them.

Nicole: 22:10

None of these guys, all of these guys, will create problems.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 22:13

Yes

Nicole: 22:15

“I know, I know. It’s so fucking annoying”.

Arabella: 22:17

“Tell me about it. All I want is Zander and it’s not happening”.

“I’m sure it will though soon-“Arabella: 22:20

I shrugged.

Nicole: 22:22

“Honestly, sex with Mike is amazing but it’s Jay keeping me up at night”.

“Seriously. You’re so silly-he always finds reasons to touch you-“Nicole: 22:27

“He does not!”

Arabella: 22:29

“Next time he does, I’ll point it out-“She rolled her eyes.

Nicole: 22:31

Also, because how, hopefully, you're not going to point it out the way I would point it out.(Nicole starts to laugh)

Arabella: 22:34

Well, let's be honest, I am.

Nicole: 22:36

Now! He's doing it right now!

Arabella: 22:38

I am the more subtle of us two.

Nicole: 22:40

True, I am less subtle of us, for sure.

Arabella: 22:42

Less subtle. You're like a fucking bulldozer.(Both laugh hard)

Nicole: 22:45

Aww

Arabella: 22:47

She rolled her eyes. We bought a few lovely night dresses and moved on to lingerie.

Nicole: 22:50

“You know Mike doesn’t let me kiss him on the mouth”.

Arabella: 22:52

“Huh—why not?”

“So you’re having all the sex, none of the kisses, and I’m having all the kisses—none of the sex-“Nicole: 22:58

“Perhaps our luck is about to change”.

Arabella: 23:00

Most of the lingerie we bought were red or black or green. Some items were bought to go with the evening dresses. We paid for the immense amount of clothes and there was no problem using Mike’s card. All in all, it was a very enjoyable day. Even Nicole agreed after we had lunch that it wasn’t the worst thing that had ever happened to her. That I take as a big fucking win, by the way.

Nicole: 23:04

That is true, but also how gracious of me. It's not the worst thing to have happened.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 23:07

I know, so fucking gracious.(Arabella huffs a laugh)

Nicole: 23:10

Make sure I, I can't remember. I don't think I said this to Mike. Nah, I didn't. It's important that I didn't tell him because I, I should be very thankful and grateful, like the amount of money he just spent.

Arabella: 23:12

Yeah

Nicole: 23:14

And for me to be like it wasn't the worst(Nicole sucks in a deep breath) Mmmmm

Arabella: 23:18

(In agreement) mmmm(Nicole laughs) Before leaving for the stadium, Nicole changed into some of her new clothes. She was wearing plaid black and red trousers with a black spaghetti top with an upside down rose on it. She paired it with black doc martins and her hair falling in loose curls. I had to change at the venue as I was performing with 'The Band’. We had no time to lose if we were going to make it in time. Le Stad de Lyon wasn’t as big as the one in Paris, but better. If I was coming to watch The Band, I’d prefer Lyon for the intimacy. Nicole still stood by the fact that the show in Hertfordshire was the best she’d ever seen. Better than Paris. We had no problem getting into the venue as I had my pass and Billy came to let Nicole in. We walked to the greenroom where we expected ‘The Band’ would be. Some of the guys whistled, and Nicole blushed, deeply.“Come on, don’t be rude. Don’t I look good too?”“Of course, you do”, Zander, who was standing next to the door, said and kissed me on the cheek. I grinned at him. After we greeted The Band, Nicole asked

Nicole: 23:29

“Is there no way I can get a backstage pass?”

Arabella: 23:31

“Why would you need one?” Noah asked, “you’re always with us”.

Nicole: 23:33

“Like just now, Billy came to let me in. Doesn’t he have better things to do?” Mike sighed. “I prefer knowing you can’t leave the premises without my knowledge and then sneak back in—this is called limiting your bullshit”. Wow! Fuck my life. This is called limiting your bullshit. Okay, thank you!

Arabella: 23:39

Savage.

Nicole: 23:41

Yeah(Arabella laughs)“Afraid I’ll run away?”

Arabella: 23:45

“I’m not playing tonight, Nicole”, he told me clearly, “that’s your punishment. You’ll be super obedient unless you want me to chase you away. I’m not fucking around”.(Nicole sort of laughs through her teeth breathily) Nicole swallowed.

Nicole: 23:49

“Fair enough”. Okay. So, in front of him let me just say I'll say fair enough. But just here can I just say the words he used… you wha, you, unless you want me to chase you away.

Arabella: 23:52

Yeah

Nicole: 23:54

The brat in me is like yes, I do want you to chase me, not away, just chase.

Arabella: 23:56

That is abso, just chase.

Nicole: 23:58

That sounds like fun.

Arabella: 24:00

Hunt me down!

Nicole: 24:02

Yes, please. Sorry.(Arabella laughs suggestively) So sorry for who I am, but in seriousness I understand, fair enough.

Arabella: 24:06

“Where’s the stuff you bought?” Mike asked to change the subject rapidly.“Still in Billy’s car”. Nicole sat down on the arm of the sofa next to Jason, but I gave her a hidden look and she quickly moved to sit on the carpet next to Mike’s feet.

Nicole: 24:10

Wow.

Arabella: 24:12

The irony.

Nicole: 24:14

Everyone's limiting my bullshit it seems. Everyone.

Arabella: 24:16

Yeah, we're all like,

Nicole: 24:18

No, no, no, no

Arabella: 24:20

Simmer down you.

Nicole: 24:22

Yeah

Arabella: 24:24

Enough bullshit. Nicole sat down on the arm of the sofa next to Jason, but I gave her a hidden look and she quickly moved to sit on the carpet next to Mike’s feet. The irony.

Nicole: 24:28

Yeah

Arabella: 24:30

“Have fun?” Zander asked.

Nicole: 24:32

“Hmmm-as much fun as shopping can be”

Arabella: 24:34

Jason laughed. “You’re every man’s dream”. Nicole looked very chuffed with herself.“I beg to differ”, Carter said.“You would”“You both have too many opinions. And you wrap people around your finger”.

Nicole: 24:39

“Who’ve I wrapped around my finger?”

Arabella: 24:41

“Noah-Billy-Andrew”, Carter said, counting them down on his fingers. Noah laughed. “I don’t mind”.

“Jay-“Nicole: 24:44

“Jay?”

Arabella: 24:46

Nicole asked, surprised, looking over at him.“I just said I like that you’re both chaotic good and boobs help too”, he said. Everybody had to laugh.“Those sound-like fine qualities to me”, Zander said, winking at me.“And Zander”, Carter added.“Hey, Noah!” I said, suddenly remembering something I heard in an interview. “I remember watching an interview once that said you have sex with everything-“They laughed.“I don’t”, Noah said, smiling. “That’s just Mike talking shit!”

Nicole: 24:54

“I hope so. ‘Cause if that’s true-Jay sleeps with passed out women”.

Arabella: 24:56

“No, that’s bull-shit", Jason said seriously.“Just that—a rumour”, Zander added.“I would never continue—without consent”, Jason confirmed.

Nicole: 25:00

“Must be difficult though, don’t they often pass out?” Oh my God, that's such a mean thing to say,(Arabella erupts with laughter) That's such a terrible. It's like these guys are being so warm-hearted, going like we wouldn't do anything without consent, and I'm like, but don't they just pass out all the time?(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 25:06

All the time.“What do you mean?” Jason chuckled.

Nicole: 25:09

“Because you are so dazzling?”(Nicole snorts a laugh)

Arabella: 25:12

(Arabella dramatically clears her throat) I cleared my throat loudly.

“What? It’s The Band—everyone’s dazzling-“Arabella: 25:16

“No”, Zander responded, “women don’t often pass out during coitus with us”. Nicole and I barked a laugh at his use of the word coitus.“Tell me you don’t have a kink for sheep or something!” I said to Zander. “Otherwise, Carter is the only sane one and that can’t be true”.“Hey!” Carter called but laughed nonetheless.“What’s wrong with me?” Mike asked.“Nothing”, I back-tracked quickly and Mike laughed too.(Nicole scoffs a laugh)

Nicole: 25:24

Oh my gosh he would laugh. When you say a thing, he laughs. When I say a thing, he limits my bullshit.

Arabella: 25:26

I'm not his brat.

Nicole: 25:28

Okay, yes.

Arabella: 25:30

I am not his brat.

Nicole: 25:32

Okay, I am.

Arabella: 25:34

You bratty little twat(Both burst out laughing)

Nicole: 25:37

You bratty little twat, I love it.(Still laughing our arses off) What are you? I'm a bratty twat.

Arabella: 25:41

“Nothing”, I back-tracked quickly and Mike laughed too. Nobody said anything so I looked at Zander.“Well?” He shrugged.“What does that mean?”“I’m not into sheep”, he smirked, “but I do have a lot of kinks”.

Nicole: 25:48

Oooohoohooohoohoohoo. Okay.

Arabella: 25:50

I'll take that. Thank you very much and yes please!

Nicole: 25:52

Yes, bring it on, babe, bring it on.

Arabella: 25:54

Bring it on fucking on.

Nicole: 25:56

We'll see who has the most. We'll do like a little weighing out of the scales.(Both laugh)

Arabella: 25:59

Yes,“but I do have a lot of kinks”.“That’s not terrible, I guess”.

Nicole: 26:03

“Very metal”

Arabella: 26:05

Nicole said, relaxing against the sofa.“Do you constantly think and talk about sex?” Mike asked, but not unkindly.

Nicole: 26:08

“No!”

Arabella: 26:10

“Yes”

Nicole: 26:12

“Bella!”(Nicole laughs)“We do not”

Arabella: 26:16

Nicole complained.“All right—most of the time”, I amended.

Nicole: 26:19

“Well”

Arabella: 26:21

She shrugged.

Nicole: 26:23

“I’m a big fan”.

Arabella: 26:25

“You need a football team to keep you satisfied, don’t you, Sticky”

Nicole: 26:27

“Bah-so do you”.

Arabella: 26:29

“Sticky?” Zander asked curiously.

Nicole: 26:31

“No, Bella, Bella! “

“What?” I asked innocently. “It was her nickname at university—and it kind of stuck-“Nicole: 26:34

“She’s joking”

Arabella: 26:36

Nicole told the chuckling band.“Why Sticky?” Jason probed.

Nicole: 26:39

“I really don’t want to talk about this—here”.

“Bella! Oh my God!“Arabella: 26:43

Everyone laughed.“That’s pretty cool”, Jason smiled, and Nicole blushed.

Nicole: 26:46

Mmmhmm

Arabella: 26:48

“Sticky—I like it”, Noah said.

Nicole: 26:50

“Don’t call me that, please”.

Arabella: 26:52

“Why?” Noah asked, “it’s cute”.“If it helps, around the same time I was called Belladonna-““After the pornstar?” Jason frowned.

Nicole: 26:55

“Not exactly. Mostly because of the BDSM stuff—also a Brat—even though it doesn’t make a lot of sense as Belladonna is normally a Domme—Bella did do a Domnatrix photo shoot once”.

“Nicky!“Nicole: 26:58

“You started, I’m only finishing”.

Arabella: 27:00

(Arabella laughs)“Fair enough”.

Nicole: 27:03

And can I just point out what you told them was way

Arabella: 27:05

Way worse

Nicole: 27:07

More intense than me going, she once did a dominatrix photo shoot. You're just like, she has a lot of sexual innuendos, and she squirts! Like okay.

Arabella: 27:09

This is all the nicknames, and this is all the dirt.

Nicole: 27:11

Damn!(Arabella laughs) And now also, I am I am aware because we've put this, full disclaimer. Obviously, we put in a lot about ourselves. Now the whole world knows. Well, the whole world, damn. I'm arrogant, huh?

Arabella: 27:15

Yep

Nicole: 27:17

Everyone who listens to this podcast will know that my nickname is Sticky.

Arabella: 27:19

Well, let's be honest. You did write this, not me, so, HAA

Nicole: 27:21

That's true, but I, Okay, fair.(Arabella laughs) But I never, when I wrote it, I never thought that we were going to share it with the world.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 27:26

This is true. But neither in editing did we change it.

Nicole: 27:28

Fair, I don't really mind. Just to be clear, everyone, because you might be wondering why I'm getting all um worked up with The Band calling me Sticky. Um, Sticky is a name, a nickname I use often in the BDSM community, like in the kink scene. So,

Arabella: 27:30

Yeah

Nicole: 27:32

Um, because that name is loaded with its meaning. So, when you call me that out of context, I think sexual things, right?

Arabella: 27:34

Yes

Nicole: 27:36

So, right now I don't want Jason or Noah or Carter to be calling me that. You see why?(Nicole wheezes a laugh) Yes, because otherwise, the mind is bad enough as it is, without help. Exactly, so yeah, um, so yeah, I would I like to request don't call me Sticky if you don't know me from a very specific context and

Arabella: 27:42

Yes

Nicole: 27:44

Thank you very much. I appreciate you all a lot.

Arabella: 27:46

Welcome to her TED talk.

Nicole: 27:48

(Both laugh) Again, so many TED talks so little time.

Arabella: 27:51

A little while later, The Band was warming up for the show; Noah, Carter and Zander were playing scales on their instruments, Mike was humming arpeggios, and Jason was playing on a drum pad between his legs. I caught Nicole daydreaming again and staring at Jason while he played.

“Nicky-“Nicole: 27:54

“It’s the music!”(Arabella scoffs a laugh)

Arabella: 27:57

She cried, coming out of her daydream.“What?” Mike asked, confused.

Nicole: 28:00

“Nothing, Should we go for a walk, Bella?”

Arabella: 28:02

“Sure, I need to go get dressed anyway-““Hey!” Mike said when Nicole got up. “Where are you going?”

Nicole: 28:04

“I just said—for a walk”. Jeez, sass.“I’ll be with her, Mike”(Whistles) I'm supposed to be on good behaviour.(Arabella laughs) I'm, like I just said, for a walk.

Arabella: 28:13

I know you're like, sassy as fuck.

Nicole: 28:15

So sorry

Arabella: 28:17

“I’ll be with her, Mike”, I said, “she won’t run off”.

Nicole: 28:19

“Seriously, you guys, I’m not a fucking child”.

Arabella: 28:21

“Prove it”, he said, “Don’t let me hear of you breaking anymore rules”.

Nicole: 28:23

“Yes, Sir”

Arabella: 28:25

Nicole said as she followed me out of the room.

Nicole: 28:27

Can I just quickly say I said yes, sir there, but in my brain I had so many comebacks.

Arabella: 28:29

You were like fuck off.

Nicole: 28:31

I had so many comebacks from me saying I'm not a fucking child and him saying prove it.

Arabella: 28:33

Yeah

Nicole: 28:35

You know what I mean.

Your little bratty brain is going, blughlughlughahNicole: 28:38

Well, for a starter, if he doesn't think I'm, if he needs me to prove I'm not a child, what is he doing?

Arabella: 28:40

Yeah

Nicole: 28:42

But I'm not gonna say that back to him because it's not cute and funny, then it's just a bit weird.(Nicole wheezes a laugh)

Arabella: 28:45

No, and you're not behaving.

Nicole: 28:47

And I'm not behaving.

Arabella: 28:49

Which is then, in turn, going back to

Nicole: 28:51

Which is why he got a very tight. Yes Sir!(Continues to laugh)

Yes, uhmmNicole: 28:55

I'll say it, but I won't like it.(Still laughing)

Arabella: 28:58

No

Once we were out of earshot, I said: 28:59

“Seriously, you need to hide the Jay-thing a lot better”.

“I’m trying-“Arabella: 29:02

“You’re salivating whenever he’s in the room-“

Nicole: 29:04

“It’s the music”.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 29:07

I rolled my eyes. “It’s not only the music and you know it. And everyone else can see it too”.

Nicole: 29:09

“Well, I’m not going to do anything about it. I can’t change how I feel—that’s not against the rules”.

“You know how my face betrays everything I’m thinking and feeling-“Arabella: 29:12

“I do”.

Nicole: 29:14

“We can’t all have ironclad self-control”.

Arabella: 29:16

(Arabella laughs)“I don’t either. I’m starting to get very frustrated with Zander not having sex with me”.

Nicole: 29:19

“It’s not for lack of trying”

Arabella: 29:21

“I need to go get dressed”, I reminded her. “Let’s go”. Twenty minutes later, while I was warming up with Nicole still next to me, I smiled. “It’s almost time-The Band must be getting dressed”.

Nicole: 29:24

“How long?”

Arabella: 29:26

“Twenty minutes”.

Nicole: 29:28

“We’ll go stand in the wings”,

Arabella: 29:30

She told me and took my hand.

Nicole: 29:32

“Come on!” I love how I give you no, I give you no choice. I'm just like let's go.

Arabella: 29:35

No, we're doing a thing. We're going.(Nicole laughs) I peered around the wall at the auditorium. “Look at that!”

Nicole: 29:39

“What?”

Arabella: 29:41

She asked, looking around as well.“The audience is fantastic!”

Nicole: 29:44

“Damn, I’d love to perform for such an audience”.

Arabella: 29:46

“And you can. If Mike delivers”.

Nicole: 29:48

“You don’t believe he will?”

Arabella: 29:50

“No, I think he will, I just don’t know when and how”.

Nicole: 29:52

“Me neither”.

Arabella: 29:54

“Here they come”, I announced. The Band was walking towards us from down the hallway. Mike was still wearing his black jeans and white tank top but had added Aviators as well. Zander was wearing grey jeans, a plain black shirt and a leather jacket with covered in band patches. Carter was wearing black jeans too but with a light denim jacket in which he was going to be roasting in on stage. Noah was wearing torn black jeans and a black shirt, and Jason was wearing only black shorts and a red tie around his neck. Nicole was staring again so I nudged her.

Nicole: 29:59

“Apologies”

Arabella: 30:01

She whispered.“You’re watching this one too?” Zander asked me.“Of course! I’m watching as many of your gigs as I can for free”. Noah and Zander laughed but looked flattered. Carter was distracted by the crowd. Mike was staring suspiciously at Nicole.

Nicole: 30:07

“What is it? Is something wrong?”

“No, I was just thinking-“Nicole: 30:10

“Are you sure?”

Arabella: 30:12

“I said no”, he barked.

Nicole: 30:14

“Yes, Sir. Sorry, Sir”.

Arabella: 30:16

Jason was looking a little nervous.“You all right, Jay?” I asked.“Yeah, I always get a little nervous before a gig”, he said.

Nicole: 30:20

Awwwww

Arabella: 30:22

The stage manager told I know

Nicole: 30:25

Such a beautiful man! Sorry, calm down.

Arabella: 30:27

Yes(Nicole laughs) Your crush is showing(Arabella laughs)

Nicole: 30:32

I think oh gosh, if I think it's, it's blasted open

Arabella: 30:34

With flashing lights,(Nicole continues to laugh)

Nicole: 30:37

Yeah

Arabella: 30:39

And theme music.

Nicole: 30:41

Exactly

Arabella: 30:43

The stage manager told The Band to go on stage, staring at the video monitor. Mike pulled off the white tank top and threw it in Nicole’s arms.

Nicole: 30:46

Oh

Arabella: 30:48

She stared at it, confused.

Nicole: 30:50

Yes, because what am I supposed to do with this?(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 30:53

You're like oh, I have a shirt.

Nicole: 30:55

I'll put it on if he wants. What?

Arabella: 30:57

Or do something weird with it. Make it into a flag,

Nicole: 30:59

Ooh I can do something weirder with it if you want. No.

Arabella: 31:01

Oh, I bet you can.(Nicole laughs harder) I bet you can. Guys, what, what else can she do with this, with this shirt that she has been given?

Nicole: 31:06

It's a tank top.

Arabella: 31:08

Give us all your dirty thoughts. Ha ha!(Nicole chuckles)“See ya, Sticky”, Zander said, squeezing Nicole’s shoulder and planting a kiss on my cheek. As The Band walked onto the stage, the crowd went wild.

Nicole: 31:13

“Bella. Look what you’ve started”.

Arabella: 31:15

“Sorry, not sorry”

Nicole: 31:17

Because you know I'm enjoying it.

Arabella: 31:19

Yes, yes, I do.

Nicole: 31:21

“They still get nervous?”

Arabella: 31:23

“Everyone gets nervous”, I reminded her.

Nicole: 31:25

“Yeah, it’s just a strange quality for them to have”.

Arabella: 31:27

“What was Mike’s problem?”

Nicole: 31:29

“No idea. Perhaps the nerves too?”

“Let’s hope he’s not angry about something else-“Nicole: 31:32

“Well, if he’s angry at me, you can protect me”(Nicole chuckles followed by Arabella)

Arabella: 31:35

I laughed.(Arabella laughs again)

Nicole: 31:38

You laughed hoping, thinking no fucking way.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 31:41

I’m like, I’m like, Oh dear God, no, somehow, I think not.

Nicole: 31:43

Yeah

Arabella: 31:45

We sang along with every song they played. We commented on the creepiness that we knew every lyric, note and rhythm to their songs.“They really are amazing”, I said as though I was seeing them for the first time. From Jason who was playing the drums vigorously and flipping his drumsticks to Carter who was rocking away on his guitar with the speed of an underground train(They both burst out laughing)

Nicole: 31:49

Yeah

Arabella: 31:51

I love it when these describing it(I know it doesn’t make sense, I’m just as baffled as you)

Nicole: 31:54

Poetic.(Still laughing)

Arabella: 31:57

Oh yeah, to Mike who had his arms spread to Noah who was jamming away in his own world as bassists so often do.

Nicole: 32:00

Yep

Arabella: 32:02

And Zander. At that moment, dearest Zander played an incredible solo. Nicole and I stared at him in awe. Ten minutes later, I stepped onto the stage to join them for our dance.

Mike introduced it with his famous line: 32:04

“This one is for all the ladies”. I walked onto the stage, shaking my hips from side to side to the beat of the intro next to one of the other dancers. We joined the other two dancers in the middle of the stage on either side of Mike. All four of us were wearing tight-fitting black corsets, fishnets and knickers with a small belt. I had no idea how the guys concentrated through the song. Actually, I do, because they are fucking professionals.

Nicole: 32:08

Yeah, but they actually told us this. Well, they actually um told everyone this that they errr, that they don't focus, when they're working, they're not focusing on anything else.

Arabella: 32:10

No

Nicole: 32:12

When they're playing music, when they're on stage, they're not focusing on anything else.

Arabella: 32:14

They're just focusing on what they're doing

Nicole: 32:16

Exactly because it's hard work, it's very hard work. Anyway

Arabella: 32:19

Exactly It actually involved very little dancing but rather provocatively shaking around the stage, standing or sometimes on our knees.

Nicole: 32:22

Mmmhmm(Arabella chuckles followed by Nicole)

Arabella: 32:25

Thank you for that mmmhmm

Nicole: 32:27

You're welcome

Arabella: 32:29

After the first half of the song, we all moved to the heightened stage behind Jason’ drumkit where we finished the rest of the song. It was hard work and when I stepped off the stage five minutes later, I needed a towel immediately. For the cleaning of the face, people, not the other way.(Nicole cracks up) Although, let's be honest, probably a little bit the other way too.

Nicole: 32:34

I don't think anyone was thinking that until you pointed it out.

Arabella: 32:36

You never know, always here to lower the mood. When we arrived at the hotel that evening, Mike said goodnight to everyone and went straight up to his suite, leaving us confused in the lobby with the rest of The Band.

Nicole: 32:39

“He’s in a mood and I don’t understand why”. Well, maybe it's still something to do with the fact that I did a really big thing this morning.

Arabella: 32:42

Yeah, probably that, probably that.

Nicole: 32:44

It's probably that.

Arabella: 32:46

It's probably that. Yeah, actually

Nicole: 32:48

But it might not be and it's very important, guys, if you didn't know this uh, a sub or a brat the, the bottom, let's call it the bottom, because there's very, there's different levels the bottom and the top. So, the bottom person still has the responsibility to make sure the top is okay, because they are still human beings, right?

Arabella: 32:51

Yeah

Nicole: 32:53

Everyone has a responsibility for each other. So, it's just important. It's important for me to go and look after my Dom if they need it, is what I'm saying.

Arabella: 32:55

Yeah, exactly

Nicole: 32:57

So, if he's, in a mood and I need to. It's going to bother me. It's going to bother me.

Arabella: 32:59

Yeah

Nicole: 33:01

“He’s in a mood and I don’t understand why”.

Arabella: 33:03

Zander shrugged. “It wasn’t his best show—perhaps he just needs some alone time”.“It sounded great to me”“So, who’s up for a game in our suite?” Zander asked excitedly.

Nicole: 33:07

“I’m game since I’m not being ravaged tonight”(Nicole whistles and Arabella laughs) Wow, again, it's just like direct bitch.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 33:12

Yeah Zander and Jason laughed.

“I hope he lets me into the suite later-“Arabella: 33:16

“If he doesn’t”, Noah said, “you can share my bed”.

Nicole: 33:18

“Stop it. Don’t be tempting”.

Arabella: 33:20

She blushed“I heard Mike on the phone to Ava earlier, could it be something to do with that?”“Forget about it”, Zander told us. “Let’s go play!”

Nicole: 33:24

“So, are you going to be my substitute tonight, Jay?”

Arabella: 33:26

Nicole asked jokingly and I pinched her side.

Nicole: 33:28

Aye!

Arabella: 33:30

Too, fucking right!(Nicole hisses out a breath in awkwardness) Chill your guava!(Nicole laughs) Jesus. He's away for like two minutes and you're like Jay Hello. Let me rub up against you.

Nicole: 33:37

I'm actually starting to feel a bit embarrassed for myself now.(Nicole laughs some more)

Arabella: 33:40

“Sorry, honey”, he smiled. “You’re too awake for me”. He winked.(Nicole laughs) Nicole laughed as we followed the rest of them up the stairs.

Nicole: 33:44

“He’s kidding, right?”

Arabella: 33:46

Nicole asked Zander softly.“About you being too awake, yeah”, he answered. “Don’t play with that fire, though”.“Go ahead”, I said in front of Jason and Zander’s room. “Nicky and I are going to go change”.“Why do you need to change?” Zander asked, “you look great”.“Yeah—but not very comfortable”, I told him. Nicole and I changed after which she convinced me that she absolutely had to go check on Mike.

Nicole: 33:53

And that's the end of today's episode. Episode 12, Sticky.

Arabella: 33:55

Ooooo Oh yeah.

Nicole: 33:58

Oh yeah.

Arabella: 34:00

So yes, this is showing that she does need to go check on her top.

Nicole: 34:02

Well, apparently, we're going to go change though,

Arabella: 34:04

It’s important

Nicole: 34:06

But I'm sure I'm going to go check on him after. Well, let's see.

Arabella: 34:08

Uh I er, read the last line again Nicky that I just spoke out loud.

Nicole: 34:10

Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry. That she absolutely had to check on Mike

Arabella: 34:12

You moose

Nicole: 34:14

You're so right and I am gonna go check on him, gently.

Arabella: 34:16

Yes

Nicole: 34:18

Not like a bulldozer, because

Arabella: 34:20

No

Nicole: 34:22

It's, this situation does not call for my bulldozing or my bratting, for that matter.

Arabella: 34:24

No, it does not.

Nicole: 34:26

Especially if he's had, if he's had a bad show, gosh. I know how that

Arabella: 34:29

I know, even though the fans wouldn't notice, but you, as a performer, notice.

Nicole: 34:31

Exactly, I was about to say I feel empathy, because I have that from time to time, you know well, I mean everyone does.

Arabella: 34:33

Well, I mean everyone does.

Nicole: 34:35

But like as a vocalist, like I feel I can, as a front man for a metal band I am not a front man, but I am a front of bands and like it's um, yeah, it's it, it hits hard, it hits hard for any musician. But

Arabella: 34:37

Yeah

Nicole: 34:39

But my point is he needs me now. Maybe he doesn't need me specifically, but he needs someone, and I feel like it's me.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 34:42

He needs, he needs someone to check on him and check he's okay and what he needs.

Nicole: 34:44

Yeah.

Arabella: 34:46

And if it is just more space to give him that too.

Nicole: 34:48

Exactly.

Arabella: 34:50

But just to know that you've been there you’ve cared

Nicole: 34:52

He’s okay, you can’t just ignore

Arabella: 34:54

Exactly. You been there to check and cared and you've asked him what he needs from you.

Nicole: 34:56

Yeah, exactly

Arabella: 34:58

It’s a hugely important part.

Nicole: 35:00

Um on a slightly different note. I wanted to say that a little bit earlier but I, I couldn't quickly find my wording to say it appropriately before you moved on. But when you were talking about the, the sticky sweatiness coming off stage after having danced(Arabella chuckles a dirty laugh) Um without going into too many details about who said this, because we'll say an anonymous band,

Arabella: 35:05

As we always do.

Nicole: 35:07

An anonymous band one time, what do you call it? Like expressed concern very empathetically over their groupies, because they often gave them blowjobs after shows and because they'd been on stage for two hours, and I think his exact word, maybe I shouldn't repeat his exact words. Paraphrasing his words, it was something along the lines of I always just think about her down there and my sweaty ball sack.(Both burst out laughing)

Arabella: 35:10

He makes a solid point though.

Nicole: 35:12

The man makes a point, that's for sure. The anonymous man makes a point.

Arabella: 35:14

Yes

Nicole: 35:16

But I mean, I suppose it could be it could transcend to any, any metal band or any rock band or any band that has groupies

Arabella: 35:18

Yeah

Nicole: 35:20

I guess and get blowjobs

Arabella: 35:22

Yeah

Nicole: 35:24

After a show. It's been so, such a fun time to be back here, you guys like,

Arabella: 35:27

It really is. We have missed this so much, and we've missed being with you guys.

Nicole: 35:29

I’ve enjoyed you, particularly

Arabella: 35:31

Yeah,

Nicole: 35:33

And I've also enjoyed chatting to you, Bella, and like having

Arabella: 35:35

Yeah

Nicole: 35:37

And being back in this universe with you.

Arabella: 35:39

Exactly. Same I’ve missed it. I mean, we do work together a lot anyway, but it's nice back recording with you. On that note, we will see you next week for Episode

Nicole: 35:43

Episode 13

Arabella: 35:45

13. Which is so named. Everyone Loves Candy.

Nicole: 35:47

That has to be, have been an American who said that, because we don't say candy.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 35:50

Yes. We do not say candy. Candy is not natural.

Nicole: 35:52

Everybody Loves Candy

Arabella: 35:54

Sweeties is what we would say. Sweeties.

Nicole: 35:57

Mmm true.

Arabella: 35:59

But anyway, yes, we look forward to being with you next week.

Nicole: 36:01

Exactly. All right. See you all very soon.

Arabella: 36:03

Love to all Bye

Nicole: 36:07

Bye.

Arabella: 36:09

Thank you, as always, for listening to us. Please follow us on all our socials, interact with us. We love it, and please don't forget to subscribe and share.

Nicole: 36:11

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Arabella: 36:13

Thank you. Please and thank you, thank you and please.(Theme music plays out with lyrics)“…. Hanging on to everything you said. And everything you did was so wonderful! So unbelievable! What is this world without you? We’re hanging on to what you were, even if it hurts!...”